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I'm Back!

Hello to everyone on the GL Board! I'm sorry I have not been around for a while. It has been a very long time....

Posted by 33Smiles

Hello to everyone on the GL Board! I'm sorry I have not been around for a while. It has been a very long time. I think both with the new changes to the site that I didn't find as easy to use compared to the old way of posting along with everything else in my life, I ended up being away for a while. I have really missed this group here both for replying and sharing whatever helpful thoughts I have as well as for sharing things that come up in my own life. I have always loved being a part of this group and being here. I really have missed all of you including Miss Caprice and I am glad to be back. I'm still new to figuring out this new site, but look forward to jumping in and learning more about it.

This has been one of the hardest years for me with multiple things going on: health issues, job cut backs, dental surgery and complications with healing, had 3 losses this year in a two month time span (one was due to moving), and just a variety of things. I currently am looking for employment still, but it's encouraging that I have been getting interviews. I also am trying to get time to get started packing my apartment as I am having to move unfortunately in winter. Also, I have started working on my bachelor's degree with online courses. Thankfully with the job cut back that enabled me to get approved for funding that will fund my bachelors degree due to me not having income. So, in the midst of the hardship was a blessing as I otherwise never would have gotten approved with income and I can't afford loans. It seems as I look back at all the hard times in my life, there has always been some sort of a blessing that has came out of them. I'm working toward weight loss and being healthier and have started being more active and regular to the gym I have a membership at. With physical issues, I can't exercise as much or in the way I would want to, but I still love to walk and can go as far as I can and build endurance and keep making it farther. So, I'm keeping a "what I can do" attitude.

Life has just been difficult and had a lot going on this year that again has been the hardest year I have had so far. I really have missed being here and am glad to be back finally.

How is everyone? I don't know if any of the regulars are still here from back then other than Miss Caprice, but if so please let me know how you are doing! and a Big hello to everyone else that may be new here, glad to have you here and welcome. Caprice I'm so happy to see you still here! Wonderful!

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Dad/older brother

I lost my older brother in June 2004 to sleep apnea and my Daddy just a few months ago on August 9th to...

Posted by bscholz9206

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Loss of Husband

My husband, John, & I were married 51 years and I knew him for 56 years. He died in May this year after a...

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holidays are around the corner

With the holidays around the corner. I can't help but feel a little anxiety and sadness... This will be my...

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Too much loss....

I have always considered myself independent and able to take care of myself. But in the past 18 months...

Posted by kristine1951

I have always considered myself independent and able to take care of myself. But in the past 18 months there has just been too much loss. June 2010 my "heart" dog had to be PTS because of bone cancer. I will never forget my partner Kent gently placing her on a blanket and carrying her to the car for her last trip to the vet. We stopped and got her a hamburger on the way - she perked up enough to eat it and then just went back into herself. I'm not really sure I ever got though grieving from losing her.

Having a dog was really important to Kent's sobriety so we adopted another a week after his "anniversary" in Sept 2010.

Kent and I were together for eight years - some pretty rough times and some great ones. He had been sober just short of three years and always said it was because of my support that he could do it.

He messed up his back by not taking care of it when he was in his 20s and 30s. Enough so that he was considered disabled - needed quite a few pain meds to live any where near a normal life. We were content - although his bad days seemed to be getting a lot worse and more frequent we still enjoyed the good ones. He loved his cat and dog - made friends in our community - kept house so I didn't have to think about anything after working 8 to 10 hour shifts.

August 25 2011 - He was still sleeping when I left for work. I knew he got up during the night and if he was having trouble sleeping he would try to sleep on the couch to not disturb me. As usual I let him sleep because he was kind enough to let me sleep before work.
When I came home that afternoon he was gone. He never got up from when I left. Luckily my family lives very close (almost too close) and gave me all the support I needed. I still can't believe he is gone - going through his things was one of the hardest things I have ever done. I am having a real problem trying to make "our" apartment "mine" now.

After much thought I decided the best choice for both me and the dog (a large energetic lab who was really a "man's dog") was to attempt to rehome him. I got nowhere with any lab rescue organizations - I actually got an unpleasant e-mail from one of them for "not standing by my dog" and "trying to take the easy way out".

I was able to find him a wonderful home with a couple who has plenty of time (and space) for him. But I miss him dreadfully.

I live in a small town surrounded by other small towns - I am not Christian and it seems all the grief resources in the area are faith (Christianity) based. My family has been wonderful but I need more than they can give me.

I just feel to along and hopeless.....View Thread

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anxiety

My husband passed away he had prostate cancer, it was a year in September, I was doing okay for the first six...

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feelings of loss

I have always considered myself a smart, above avg moral and giving person who can be strong willed but yet...

Posted by alone259

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In Memory Of...Steve Jobs

Steve Jobs, the legendary co-founder of Apple, lost his battle with pancreatic cancer earlier...

Posted by Olivia_WebMD_Staff

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Can't get passed it

My sister was killed in a car accident back in May of this year. It was unexpected and tragic. We have a...

Posted by An_240383

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Can't Move On

My Mother passed away July 29th, 2011. She would have been 70 August 14th. I thought, after the intial...

Posted by Miss_Vikki

My Mother passed away July 29th, 2011. She would have been 70 August 14th.

I thought, after the intial shock, that I was ok. Of course I think about her everyday. Not a minute goes by that I don't think about her. But recently for the past few days I've felt like I've been run over by a mac truck. I can't even look at my kids, step outside my door and see the sky or anything for that matter without breaking down into tears.

The pain in my heart is so intense. I've completely confined myself to my house. I've stoped taking care of myself, of my kids, of my home. I get so angry I've actually yelled at my children, and the whole time I'm doing these out of the ordinary things, in the back of my head I ask myslef Why? I can't seem to focus on anything, I keep forgetting the mosy mundane things. I just feel so lost, and so alone.

My fiance gets angry at me because I have confided my feelings to one of my guy friends who has also lost his mother. My fiance' thinks I should be talking to him about these things. But why? My fiance's mother is living, breathing and lives just 5 minutes away from us. How can he know my pain in the least.

I just want to be numb. I've taken Xanax, way more then perscribed, to make my pain go away. I know my fiance' is right, the pain will only go away for a short period of time, but at least I get that small amount of peace.

Another thing that hurts, is during my pain, I lashed out at my younger sister. I said things I never ment to say. I know I hurt her or pissed her of. I wrote to her and apologized, letting her know it was never her fault for how I was acting, that I just didn't know how to deal with this. And that the reason I havent been to visit is because I don't think I can emotionally handle seeing my mom's house or see my dad without my mom by his side without breaking down. She hasn't written back, so I'm really taking that kind of hard.

I'm in a pretty bad slump today. So bad my fiance' called my therapist, in turn she called the police to my house. By the time they got here I had fallen asleep from all the drugs I took and they didn't even bother to check on me or enter my home. Not that I wanted them to as I had no idea they had been called.

I can't go back to the mental hospital, I just can't. I don't want to lose my children and being there only made me more depressed then anything else. I'm just hurting inside, hurting so bad that I feel like I don't even want to be alive myself anymore. I just want to end it all. For the pain to stop.

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Depression

My name is Jeanie and i have been treated with depression back in 1997. But even though i quit taking...

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another loss

I lost my brother years ago my aunt two years ago my sister two months ago and now my mother is at the end...

Posted by beechl

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inrirled

mourning the loss of my family friends and the things that are dear to me and myseld as a human being

Posted by dem242

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lung congestion and death

Are there some instances where a person when they are dying? One of my wife's parents died from lung cancer...

Posted by irenessib

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I don't know how much I can take!

My 16th birthday was last week and I got a call from my mom's neighbor (I live with my mamaw) in the middle...

Posted by bailey2731

My 16th birthday was last week and I got a call from my mom's neighbor (I live with my mamaw) in the middle of the night saying that there was something wrong and that we needed to get there quick. When we got there, there was 2 ambulances and a bunch of people standing outside. I went to my neighbors house to see how my little sister was doing and sat there and talked to her. After a while my mamaw came over and told me that she was gone, and I started balling and wanted to go home immediately. I made it through the funeral alright, but I was still having trouble handling the fact that she wasn't going to be here anymore to talk to me and tell me how proud of me that she was.
Exactly one week after my birthday and the passing of my mom, we got another call from my neighbor saying we needed to get down there quick becuase there was something wrong with my step-dad and we needed to get my sister, becuase if we didn't his family would, and we all knew that they abused drugs and I didn't want her up there, and I knew my mom wouldn't want her up there. So they took my step-dad to the hospital and he died there of a kidney failure. I was in shock because I just didn't know how much more of death I could take.
Later that night, my step-dads family came up to my house to get my little sister and they said that she had to go with them, so I let her go, not wanting to cause any trouble.
I had heard some rumors that they had already called some lawyers and were ready to fight us in court for her and I just don't think I can handle my mom and step-dad passing away and my little sister being taken away from, too. They also said that they were planning on selling my moms trailor to pay off for the funerals and give her old car back to the dealership and collect rent from one of my moms old trailors. They are acting like they own the world right now and they're taking some of my mom's stuff and I just don't know how much I can handle!! I'm only 16 and I have college things to worry about and I don't know what to do. I miss my mom so much and they are just making 10 times worse on me. Please, someone help me!View Thread

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I am trying to hold on...

It has been almost a year since I lost my Mom, then within two weeks, I found out my husband of 36 years...

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too much in too short a time

[Trigger]

Everything started a while ago, when my father moved away to pennsylvania, my sister went away to school,...

Posted by Anon_233423

[Trigger]

Everything started a while ago, when my father moved away to pennsylvania, my sister went away to school, and I was left with my mom. I was 13 at the time. Everything quickly turned from good to bad. She picked up drinking and became physically and verbally abusive. I went from having a loving mom to the someone who I feared more than anyone else. I eventually moved out after two years. Moved in with grandma and everything was good. A year went by, everything was going well then one day it everything just stopped. I walked through the door my first day of winter break to find out that my father died in his sleep the night before. We couldn't afford an autopsy so we didn't know what killed him. It just hurt me that I never go to say goodbye, because he lived so far away I hadn't even seen him in three months. It just didn't feel real.

I turned to some very close family friends. I had been babysitting for them during the year and was a live in nanny for them for two summers. My dad was the best man at their wedding and had known them since I was 6 years old. Long story short, they meant the world to me. One day though when I was confiding in the husband, he kissed me on the forehead, then on the nose, and then before i could pull away forced a kiss upon my lips. I was scared to death and I didn't know what to do. I left it be. Nothing happened for a few months. Then one day I was babysitting overnight, the mother was away, and the father was supposed to be somewhere that night. I woke up to him stroking his hand down my ass and my legs. I was petrified and couldn't even move. About two weeks later I got up the courage to tell his wife what he did and she didn't believe me. She cut ties with me completely. I never got to say goodbye to the kids who I loved like my own, and just the loss of the friendship I had with them, the friendship that he ruined, killed me. They were family to me, the kids were everything to me, and it all got ripped away.

Now I'm 20 years old and in college, trying to get my grades up this coming semester because I haven't done too well so far, and I just feel like I can't move past everything. The little reminders of things just poke at me everyday, making even the smallest thing that goes wrong feel like a catastrophe. I get angry, I get upset, I get frustrated, I feel so many emotions at once. Emotions I have no idea how to deal with. I've tried counseling, but whenever I sit in front of the therapist, I just freeze, nothing comes out. I've spend hundreds of dollars of my own money into therapy, and just wasted my time because I just couldn't speak. I just feel stuck, like I'm not sure where to go from here. I want to put the past in the past, and move on with my life. Just not sure quite how to do that yet.View Thread

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Losing my mother

Trigger I was told to come here from another community I started, that here I might find more help in what...

Posted by Miss_Vikki

Trigger
I was told to come here from another community I started, that here I might find more help in what I'm going through.

My mother was diagnosed with cancer 6 months ago. She had a tumor removed from her frontal lobe. Since then, her speach has been affected, and her emotions are always up and down. She had the mentality of a 1-2 year old then an intelligent 65 y/o lady. She never wanted to live like that. She asked a few family members on several occasions to get a gun and shoot her. My dad is 75 and unable to care for her on his own, so he placed her in a nursing home. On the 15th she had a stroke which left her right side completely paralized. Now she can't talk and can barely swallow. She has given up on life. She wants to die and it's so hard to watch her go through this. She refuses her meals and has given strict orders against a feeding tube. She hasn't had a meal since the 15th. My dad can randomly get a few straw fulls of water or juice in her mouth before she clenches her teeth and refuses to open her mouth. She's just whithering away before our eyes and there is nothing we can do about it. It's just so hard. I have been trying to get the strength to let her know that it's ok to go, that it's ok to be at peace and that my sister and I will take care of my dad. I can't get past my emotions to say this to her. She can hear me when I talk to her. When I last visited, she opend her eyes and looked at me.

I just don't know what to do, what to say anymore, or even how to say it. Everytime I try to form the words, I break down. I'm trying to be strong for her, but I came into this situation already weakend by a life long battle with depression. My brain can't handle this. Seeing my dad cry deepens my pain. Seeing him hurt so much and the guilt he's placing on himself. He thinks he didn't hydrate her enough to stop the stroke. He blames himself for the pain she's going through.

I don't want her to die. But I want her pain to end. The Dr's have made it very clear there is no coming back from this for her. I think she knows this, it's why she's starving herself it's why she has now choosen DNR. It's all too much to handle. I don't know or have the tools to handl this. I've never experienced this before.

Any helpful advice would be greatly appreciated.

Thank you

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I'm new hoping for help

My son died September 4, 2009 and it will soon be two years and I am worse not better and I see no point in...

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Struggling with my Mother's Death

I've been struggling with the death of my Mother (and who was also my best friend) since January 30, 2011....

Posted by Anon_228672

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Struggling with the death of my daughter.

Hello everyone. This will be the first attempt at any kind of grieving in a group setting I have done or...

Posted by angel3132011

Hello everyone. This will be the first attempt at any kind of grieving in a group setting I have done or even talking to people about my situation other than my mom and one close friend. I lost my two and half year old daughter Sapphyre four months ago. She was my third child, due to medical reasons and financial unstability my mother has custody of my two oldest children. Sapphyre was my last chance at being a mom seeing as I had my tubes tied after having her. She was my world! She gave me the strength and courage and determination to change my whole life around for the better. I loved her with all my heart and she was never unhappy with me. I did everything I could to give her the best of everything. We would play together, shop together, go out for mcdonalds....we had so much fun all the time. She gave my life so much meaning and now it feels like I have none left. Without her everything just faded to gray, nothing seems fun anymore, I stay depressed. I have to force myself to go to work because I need the money badly but I would rather just sit at home alone in my apt which is what I do everyday I am off. I keep telling myself she's coming back that this isn't real even though deep down inside I know that's not true. I just cannot admit it out loud to myself for fear of completely breaking down. Her grave side is my comfort zone, the only place I really feel safe and close to her. I go there often to talk to her, read to her or just cry sometimes. I keep questioning to myself why God had to take her back at such a young age, it just doesn't seem fair to me. I still need her here with me. I miss her so very much

more than words can even explain. I was told she died from an intestine laceration and pancreatic injury. I still four months later have no idea how this happened which makes this situation that much worse. I feel I still have no closure. She had been visitng her father for a week when I got a phone call that I had to pick her up immeadiately at 10:30 at night. She came home with mutiple brusies but seeing as she was two and I forgot to mention disabled due to a femur disorder therefore she could not walk, bruises were not uncommmon for her. She also had a few other things wrong, nothing that warranted an emergency at the time (I am willing to share thoses things if anyone wants to know) I regret now not rushing her to the er, I feel I could have saved her if she was already hurt. I struggle with that guilt and regret everyday and blame myself for not being a better mother. There are a few more circumstances surrounding her passing that are causing me a great deal of stress. I am actually afraid to go into detail for fear of judgement or rude replys. Forgive me but people seem to have a lot more disrespect and harsh words for me these days than comfort and support. Again I am willing to share for those who are really here to help me deal with this and who are not judgemental or harsh. I have so many unanswered questions as to what happened to her, when it happened and if there was something I could have done. I feel like closure is nowhere in sight for me. Most days it feels like the walls are closing in on me and I just want to end it all and be able to hold her in my arms again. I know though that's not what she would want. I still want to make her proud of me, I know she's watching down on me from above. I know I have to be strong to keep fighting for the truth for her but it is so hard at times that I find strength almost impossible to summon. I just have so much going on right now in my life that I don't know where to even begin to deal with losing her but I know the longer I go denying things the harder it will be on me when reality does finally hit me. Thank you all for listening.View Thread

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A Year now and I still hurt =( help!

Hi, I had some previous post in webmd about troubles in a relationship. this was a while back. I do suffer...

Posted by Anon_43843

Hi,

I had some previous post in webmd about troubles in a relationship. this was a while back. I do suffer from depression and anxiety since I was 18 and now I am 26. I finally left the person I was in love with for 4 years. I left him on June 7th. of 2010 is been little over a yr. I suffered so much when I left him I had a lot of depression, but in a way I also had relief after he mistreated me, he abused me mentally, he was controlling, very jealous, alcoholic, didn't have a stable job. anyhow he did a lot of damage to me, emotionally and financially. I been in a relationship since March with this great guy, he knows what I been thru, he treats me so great, my relationship now is so completely different he makes me feel beautiful and he supports me in a lot of things. He is deeply in love with me. and I love him, care for him, I love spending time with him. we always do fun things. I just have a big problem my ex still pops to my mind, and I hate that. I hate that after he hurt me for so long, I still think about him and miss the good things we had. I feel like crying a lot. I don't know why I still think about him like this, I am the one that made the decision to move on, to leave him after being with him for 4 yrs and being close to marriage, I feel so bad cause I am with this great person, but I still miss my ex how is that possible. I don't know what to do. I feel it would only be fair to leave my boyfriend now. cause I feel like a being a hypocrite. I feel confused, I feel very depressed even though I am already on meds, I am not fully happy, and this kills me cause my boyfriend has done so much for me. and he loves me so much. I am also afraid of leaving him then realizing I did the wrong thing. how can I forget my ex and move on. I don't know what to do. who to talk. I cant tell people hey by the way I am with my boyfriend and he is great but I still cry for the abusive ex I had. it just sounds crazy. any advice please. I don't even know if I am in the right community, I am not sure if this is called grief for me. I just need help. I don't want to lose my bf and I want to be happy. I sleep a lot cry a lot and I am always tired, I know is probably part of me being depressed. but I should be happier now. and I just feel like I am not. =( anyone please comment. thanks.View Thread

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Facing the pending death of my father

We just found out my Dad has leukemia and was told he has 3-5 months to live. How do I deal with this? You always...

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Lost a friend

On June 18th of this year I lost a close friend. Ever since then I have been feeling tired all the time,...

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Loss of my nephew...I really need help

This whole thing with my nephew has me all screwed up...I can't express my emotion with the grandmother and...

Posted by An_198074

This whole thing with my nephew has me all screwed up...I can't express my emotion with the grandmother and especially not the mother because I know their pain is greater. My own son is a year older than my nephew and they had Birthday parties together. I have so much emotion bottled up I can't let it out. I have prayed about it and talked about it with my husband but I just can't grasp the concept that this actually happened. I was there that day I played patty cake with him to keep him awake until the ambulance got there and then drove to the hospital behind the ambulance trying to keep his grandmother calm and this is tearing me up inside and I have nobody who I can talk to without feeling that I am out of place for the simple fact that he #1 wasn't my son #2 I wasn't related to him by blood but he was my baby...I just don't know what to do....I can't let it go...I just don't let anybody know how I am feeling much less show it. How can I deal with this I know it is going to come out sooner or later but as of yet I haven't grieved I am the strong one the one other people can lay on the one who rubs heads and cuddles those who are hurting I am the saver I fix things and I can't fix this. He went into the hospital on Nov 14th and died December 12, 2010 He was 3yrs old... I just don't know what to do I feel so lost....I feel bad bringing my kids around sometimes because I know that their baby our baby is not there.... I see the look in his mothers eyes when my kids are playing and he is absent the scene....I feel bad...it makes me want to take my kids home so she doesn't have a break down...I want to break down sometimes but I just can't seem to let it out....I don't want anybody to see it...not even my husband...I feel like I am going to explode I have no outlet...when I feel myself becoming upset I leave the room or zone out so I can push the emotions back down into non existence until the next time I have to hide it. Please help me.....View Thread

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loss of husband now a singlr mom of a 3 yr old

hi im not doing good ive lost my first love and husband. im now raising our daughter and its hard trying to...

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