I have always considered myself a smart, above avg moral and giving person who can be strong willed but yet gentle and forgiving. I have been having moments when I just well up inside and have to fight to hold back the tears and feeling of loss. Anytime I hear of a military loss of life or just start thinking about the future. When ever I see my dog and think about in the future that I will have to put him down, or if I were to lose my wife to some unforseen accident or illness that would take her away from me.. I can't hold it back, I well up inside and break down with a sudden feeling of grief and sadness and 2 minutes later I'm fine. It hits me in waves. A day doesn't go by that it doesn't hit me several times a day. It's been going on for 2 years now and it's getting worse and it scares me. I try to control it, but the feeling just stops me in my tracks and I can't deal.
I've been to my priest, my doctor and I'm ready to see a shrink because it's tearing me up inside. I see a coffin coming off an airplane for a military vet and I cry. I don't feel in control anymore and it's affecting me at my job and at home because after the initial feeling is gone something sad lingers in me I can't explain.
I'm reduced to asking for help from a website. Any ideas? I just want it to subside.View Thread