I turned 61 last week and it was the first birthday without my Dad. He died 9/7/10 and I just can't come to grips with it. I would go to see him and Mom every 6-8 weeks for the past 5 years. We were very close. The last day he was alert was the night before I left. He told me I was a good daughter and he loved me. He fell the next morning and was never alert again.I promised him I would return in 2 weeks. I did, for his funeral. My last vision of him was curled up in a fetal position in a diaper.
I used to post on the MS support group but I couldn't keep up anymore. 6 days before my Dad died I had major surgery, so attending the funeral was very difficult.
Today is the 3rd day I haven't left the house. I have been just sitting and crying. My family is not the kind to discuss anything. So my grief is my own. Thank you for letting me vent. ArleneView Thread