[Trigger] Is this where you post personal problems? The people on the main board seem to love Christmas. All I remember is my step-father getting drunk and abusing me. I hated it year after year. Now when I see a tree I remember being raped by him as that was his favorite place after mom went to bed. I've been unemployed for over 3 years and have no money. I live alone and try to stretch what I can because going to the food pantry makes me feel like a slug. Last week I just wanted it all to end, but I was told to come here. The bipolar board was tough but people on the depression board welcomed me and helped. I got to the doctor and got meds. I hadn't been sleeping but have now. He said he would support me for disability which gives me hope. Cookie said I should work for a charity, hard to say I was hoping for a charity basket from the church. I hope in the new Year to get back on my feet. To get disability and be able to help others instead of being the one asking for help. Being bipolar, unemployed and even with a degree, there are no jobs in CA I can find. I have no money for gas to drive. Maybe I am just a drain on the world. I wish I wasn't.View Thread