yeah I don't have internet right now....stupid bills! lol but you can e-mail me any time you like....I think of you allll the time in the shower when i'm nekkid and hot n steamy n .....well....you get the idea...
did I tell you I'm engaged??? I've been dating this amaaaaazing girl since september and I proposed on my bday in feb it may seem quick to some, but we're so perfect for each other I don't give a crap about what anyone else says!
no actual wedding plans yet...we're basically married anyway...living together, joint bank account lol...well anyhoo...hit me up woman!!View Thread
Where to even begin??? It's been a LONNNNG time since I've even been on a webmd message board, so I'm sure I'm a stranger to most of you anymore. But...ah well lol
I'm sick of being creatively dry. It's like it's on the tip of my tongue and I just can't spit it out. Every once in a while I manage to write some sort of poem, but.....it's just not the same. I hate meds for mucking up my mind.
I'm sick of being alone. Even the person I'm interested in keeps trying to push me away because they are dying and don't want to hurt me. But they don't seem to realize my heart is already invested. True, it might hurt more the more I love them...but it's going to hurt BAD already....so why not just let love happen? It's very frustrating. I just want to feel wanted. But when you're being kept at a distance (even if it is supposedly for your own good), it's easy to feel unwanted.
I'm sick of discovering new health problems. I have a list a mile long of things that are currently wrong with me and/or possibly wrong with me and I am avoiding the doctor at all cost because one, I can't afford all the visits and treatments and because two, I just don't care anymore.
I'm sick of not having friends that want to do things with me. By that I mean that I'm sick of nobody EVER calling me or inviting me anywhere. I am CONSTANTLY trying to get together with SOMEONE...ANYONE....but does anybody ever come through? Hardly ever. For example: I wanted to do something after I got off work last night. I literally asked about six different people. It was either too late for them or they already had other plans. By the sixth person, I got too depressed to keep trying. That, and I ran out of people that I thought might want to do something that late. Now, I understand people having plans already. I understand being too tired from time to time. But every day? Sometimes I have to resign myself to not doing ANYTHING during the week because nobody ever wants to get together. Correction: nobody ever wants to get together...with ME. I guess I just never understood how people can sit there and tell me how great I am but then turn around and forget I even exist. I think about people all the time, even if I barely know them. I'll think "hey, that person was pretty cool....maybe we'd click if we went for coffee". I find it hard to believe I'm the only person who thinks that way.
I absolutely HATE the phrase: "I know you love me more than I love you". WTF. Way to instill confidence. Gosh, no...how could that make anyone paranoid about their own actions and feelings? (<-- obvious sarcasm)
I'm sick of holier than thou self-righteous hypocrites, especially when they take the shape of family.
I'm sick of hiding who I am, editing my words or actions, or "quieting my voice" because it is not socially or religiously "acceptable".
I'm sick of waking up every day and wondering wtf I'm even doing on this planet.View Thread