Did you complete the entire test? I had to have cognitive testing done a year ago and it took around 10-12 hrs (done over 2 days) and then the NeuroPsychologist went over the results with me and then wrote a 20 page report that I was able to have. The testing that I did was not exclusively puzzles, but it did have some.
What were you being tested for, if you don't mind my asking? I was being tested because I was having some cognitive problems at the time and they wanted to make sure there wasns't any brain damage. So I had a specific MRI as well as cognitive testing. WEll, the results of the cognitive part showed that I didn't have any damage, but it clearly showed my already diagnosed and known learning disability - but that's not what I was being tested for. So that's why I asked what specifically you were being tested for. Just because you have dificulty with puzzles does not mean that you would not test out "normal" for the specifica area you are being tested for. I'd be interested to know if you are willing to share.
I don't think any of us have to judge you because you've already judged yourself. You know the difference beteen right and wrong, but right now, the wrong just feels too good and you think it's making you happy. You are saying all of this out loud to try to justify it to yourself - but you know what's right and wrong. I don't have to judge you - you have done that yourself.