I am a 62 year old female who suffered a heart attack on October 20, 2012. On October 22, 2012, I had a triple by-pass. I was in the hospital for eight days. I also have A-fib which flared up after having surgery. When my husband arrived at the hospital, he was told by the cardiologist, if we had been 10-20 minutes later, it would have been divine intervention that I would have survived. I am so very grateful to be alive and enjoying life, but I find in moments alone, I feel depressed and alone. I feel guilty when those feelings enter my thoughts, but it's true and I'm trying to deal with these emotions. I'm also having problems with muscle spasms through my back as well as areas in my chest. My surgeon has explained to me that this is due to opening up the chest and having to stretch everything to the max. Has anyone else experienced the spasms? I thank you for any help you can offer me.