Of course there's guilt involved. No workers. It was a night out with my girlfriends that went a little too far. I'm a young professional mother and I think I'm beating myself up. My parents want me to speak with a therapist to try and work all this out.
For someone reason though I can't let it go. I research the medication I feel I will need to take. I treat myself like I already have it. It's just awful. I'm abstaining from sex til 1 year and will test one final time. If that's negative then I know I need to accept it. I've always had a good immune system so that's why I feel like maybe it's not able to be traced yet??View Thread
So I had a possible exposure back in August. Unprotected straight sex, one time.
From this horrible decision I contracted hsv 1.
I tested 4 weeks after, 12 weeks after and again last week. All negative but I cannot accept that answer for I'm having so many symptoms. The main one is swollen neck lympnodes that have been present for months. My doctor doesn't seem to be concerned and I've seen 2 other doctors in the practice who feel the same.
What is m problem? Why am I convinced I have it and that it's just not detectable yet? Is there a chance I actually do have it?
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He is taking medicine, regularly and doing everything he needs to stay healthy. He hasn't had too many side effects and is in general good health.
I know there is so much stigma on HIV and that really ticks me off. I don't think that is fair whatsoever! An HIV status should not define person.
After much thought I have decided to seek counseling to help me with the more emotional struggles I am going through and what I will be going through in the future. We have also set up a meeting with his Doctor to discuss concerns I am having.
I have no clue why my Doctor has urged me to wait 6 months. After a lot of research it states pretty clear HIV testing is conclusive at 3 so I am going to go in next week to get those results. Hopefully they are negative but if they are not I am determined to fight alongside him.
Thanks Dan for your words. I certainly feel more at ease with my decision to continue seeing him.View Thread
Well here is a brief overview of my story...my life... About 2 months ago I made the biggest mistake of my life and slept with a man I barely knew. About 2 weeks after the encounter I had what I thought was a HORRIBLE yeast infection. I rushed myself to the Doctor to find out I had contracted HSV-1 (of the genitals) I was heartbroken and really upset with myself, but I have put that behind me and have fully coped with the situation. About 1 week after testing positive for the HSV my Doctor urged me to get tested for everything else. I was so hesitant because I was terrified of the results. I got tested for everything else including HIV and all results were negative. My Doctor told me to wait 6 months for a fully conclusive result. So here I sit 3 months past exposure waiting waiting and doing some more waiting. In the meantime I met someone through my work. We started to hang out and things were amazing from the start. The only kicker is he is HIV positive. Deep down I still feel like I have HIV and that the antibodies are not present yet to show up, but if I am truly negative I know that by dating this man I will always be at a higher risk than normal. I just don't think I could ever go through the guilt and worry I had when I thought I was initially positive. However I have really fallen for this guy. He is absolutely amazing. He has such a positive outlook on life it is contagious. He is romantic, witty, super funny and really is everything I have been searching for. I guess what I am hoping for is to hear from anyone who is in a similar situation, where one partner is negative the other positive. (Just a side note that I am female) Both of us have our own children and are not interested in more so the risk of passing it to our child would be eliminated. I am at such a loss. My heart and head are telling me 2 different things and I am just not sure where to turn.........View Thread
Thanks for the response Gail. I'm holding on to some hope but my mind won't rest like most people going through this. Just never thought I would find myself in this situation. Holding onto hope until I get tested againView Thread
I'm really scared I may have contracted HIV from a 1 night stand about 4 weeks back. I tested at the 4 week test but my Dr urged to get tested again at 3 and then 6 months. I'm just feeling really alone and scared and could really use someone to talk to. My family is in denial I may have this and keep telling me I'm crazy and I want to believe that but deep down I feel like something is wrong. The guy I slept with changed his number AND moved since I mentioned it. Why would he do that if he had nothing to hide? Symptoms I've been having are pretty dead on. Flu like symptoms. Lots of nuesea but no throwing up. Weird rash I've never had before. Dr said its folliculitis. Tired. Muscle aches. So pretty much everything. I'm terrified. I'm a single mom and I can't stop thinking about death and dying before I see my girls grow up. If anyone would be kind enough to email back and forth I would appreciate that more than anything. This sense of loneliness is really overwhelming me. View Thread