I am getting married in a few months, and I have made some decisions that has sent me into fear and despair. Lack of sleep, I can't eat, I can't do anything. I am a complete and total wreck, and I just need to talk to someone.
I've had sex with 3 people this year besides my girlfriend. It was not the right thing to do, and I keep going through these things. I go into despair, I get so scared, I am afraid I have infected her and it causes me more grief than I have ever experienced. I am so very scared.
I had sex with a man for about 2 minutes with a condom on, and he performed oral on me, a week later I had an HIV test and it was negative. I know that this does not mean much because of the short time, but my girlfriend was pregnant at the time. She had an HIV test when the baby was born a month later, and it was negative. How long does it take until you can pass HIV after you've had sex?
I had sex for about 20 seconds unprotected with a woman. She was in the army, and I know they pay pretty close attention to the soldiers' health.
3 weeks ago, I rimmed a guy for about 5 seconds, gave him oral for about 5 minutes, and he gave me oral.
What are my risks? I am so scared... I don't want to ruin our lives. I don't know why I do this. Each time I do... I get scared and go through this, but I never remember the pain and anxiety. I will never do this again, because this anxiety is not worth the pleasure, and I see that now. I am being tested tomorrow (in about 3 hours). I hope I can get a response or something... I just am very very afraid of what will happen to our future..View Thread