I have suffered from OCD all my life starting from getting intrusive thoughts to the having a fear of HIV for the last couple of years. Everytime I mad out or deep kissed someone I ran to private clinics to get tested. I have spend near to 1000 pounds getting tested from private clinics. my latest incident has really scared me. A bit of background, my boyfriend and I have been together for the last 6 months. He had 6 sexual partners before me and had gone to thailand with his friends on nov2013. I know he had indulged in sexual activities (possibly oral, vaginal and anal sex with sex workers). We met in Jan2014 and been together since. I got him tested from a GUM clinic on Mar2014 and everything was negative (normal). Before this we only made out and nothing more.In may we went on holiday and on the night of 12th may i got really drunk and performed oral sex on him like for 2-3 seconds (or so he tells me). He also fingered me anally and vaginally followed by a hand job during which he came over himself.. What worries me is that I had a small cut in my mouth and a small cut around my anus from him fingering me. now suddenly i am extremely worried about HIV and the what ifs are killing me what if we also had vaginal and anal sex and i dont remember as i was drunk ( i didnt remember a lot of things he told me thenext day) what if he also had sex with someone else while he was with me for 6 months and he is hiv+ (he has assured me he wasnt with anyone else and my heart believes him?!!?) I have done the PCR RNA test 9 days post exposure which has come out negative but i am still not convinced. I am very scared and it is affecting my work, relationships with family and friends and health. I have had a lot of concerns before this where i thought i had hiv from kissins, pregnant from kissing and going to die from self masturbation. I dont know if this scare is genuine. I dont know if i am worried needlessly or if i should be worried? Please help, so stressed and anxiousView Thread
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