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Karen's Unspecified Non Hodgkin's Lymphoma

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karenrugs

Joined: 03/10/2010

My Story:

I wanted to start my profile with a few feel good, happy thoughts, but I had my 4th of 8 chemo treatments today and am really starting not so good.
The metallic taste is starting, the bad aching feeling is creepin up and it feels like I need to take a shower and go to bed.

I know, that once I go to bed, all the horrendous dreams will start. They always do after a treatment. Sometimes, I can wake up without yelling or screaming, sometimes not. I know that my husband, Mark, gets very little sleep.

So bear with me as I work on this profile. Feel free to post.

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Finally! Again for the second time, I'm in remission. The endoscopy report stated, " No...

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Finally! Again for the second time, I'm in remission. The endoscopy report stated, " No sign of cancer cells." I got a congratulations and now am looking forward to getting the bill.

I can't wait to get on with life, again. It's finally sunk in - no more chemo. The treatment made me feel worse than I actually did. I could deal with the pain, do everyday, but being sick from drugs is another situation.

So, come on hair. Get growing. I want to shave my legs again and underarms. LOL! I want to go to my stylist, when my now totally grey hair finally grows. Get in shape again. Yeah, yeah. Never really was.

Life feels different. Things that used to be important to me, arent. So what if the car isn't washed, house isn't cleaned everyday? Who cares if the neighbors are having a knock-down drag-out. As long as there's not any blood.....

I want to watch my Grandchildren grow up. I have two and they mean everything to me. I know they would forget me if I died. But that's just it. I don't want to, not yet. Who would love my grandson, Johnny as much as I do? I know if I died, his little life would be so different than it is now. Who would he have to talk to about his little problems? Who??

I want to grow "older" with my husband, my hero, my knight, my rock.
Sometimes, when I can't sleep, I listen to his breathing and I think about how his life would be if I died. My heart literally breaks. Our daughters wouldn't come around much. Heck, they don't anyway. Not since lymphoma. I can't think about it.

Yup, life means so much. When people talk about taking theirs and how much better everyone would be, I want to slap them. And tell them how wrong they are.

Each day is a blessing. I know that I can fall out of remission at anytime. It happened before. It can happen again. Nothing's a given.
But I know that if that happens, at least I had this time of being happy.
Without cancer. Living, loving life and praying.

If anyone does read this. My prayers are with you. I hope if you or a family member or friend stays with whatever treatment you have.

Thank you,
Hugz,

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To wig or not to wig?

That is your preference. I choose not to wig. For one, wigs are expensive and after...

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Reply: Does it sound like Lymphoma?

I can understand how you feel about being scared and feeling alone. But don't give up...

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Tinyspot Sorry it's taken me so long to answer. I've just now starting to feel human...

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Understanding lymphoma

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It hits a person out of no-where - the initial diagnosis. Cancer. Your mind goes...

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Understanding lymphoma

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Of course, WebMD, is a must go to read place for me. Info can be found in their Cancer...

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Has information on all cancers

http://www.cancer.org

Hugz, Karen

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Info on blood cancers

http://www.lls.org/

These people will send out valuable info on blood cancers including NHL and Hodgkins...

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The great metallic aftertaste

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Excellent resource

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The doctors, nurses and staff are all very knowledgeable and caring. I greatly...

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