I am a 43 year old single woman. I have full custody of my 2 year old granddaughter. I was recently diagnosed with Lupus.It's weird. I feel like the doctors gave me lupus! I went 2 see my Dermatologist because of a strange rash that I've had in the past. Told him about the body aches and asked him 2 test 4 lupus even though when he tested me years ago it was negative. From the moment he did the skin biopsy and sent me 4 my first round of blood work,it was downhill from there! The fatigue. The photo sensitivity. The PAIN! My bones and joints hurt! My muscles are easily fatigued! My legs are the worst! I feel like I went 2 bed and woke up in someone else's body!! I'm not an athletic person,but,I am (was) energetic. It's so hard 4 me 2 be forced 2 sit down(I mean lay down).I have been reading,researching and trying 2 learn about this disease. I have been fighting depression, 4 my granddaughter's sake. But,as I'm sure u all know,it's not easy! It's been hard 4 me 2 explain 2 my family and friends exactly what I'm going through both physically and emotionally. The truth is,I'm already tired of talking about it. Tired of complaining how tired I am. Tired of complaining about the pain.Already tired of needing people 2 help me with the baby when I don't have the strength 2 keep up with her.I'm so angry right now! I can't believe this is happening 2 me! I've never been sick! How did I wake up sick? I do realize that I'm lucky right now that the fatigue and the arthritis are the only things I'm dealing with. I know that there are people who are alot sicker and have been 4 a much longer time than I. I'm just having a difficult time adjusting.I'm hoping that by continuing 2 read and become involved in supportive discussions,that the isolation and loneliness that I'm feeling right now will begin 2 dissapate.Thank u 4 allowing me 2 vent!!!View Thread