I have been living with RA since I was 18. I have been on remicade, methotrexate, plaquinil, prednisone, and much more for over 10 years. I have done extensive research on RA and my symptoms have often been different from the normal patient. I have tingling and numbness in my hands and feet but hardly any swelling or deterioration. Only at my worst do my hand joints swell or appear arthritic. Now that I am turning 30 I am looking in to other reasons for my symptoms. I have recently experienced odd skin rashes and crazy hair loss. I have bouts of depression and anxiety that tend to last for months. My disease is much different than it was when I was younger. I sometimes think that I am now feeling its full effects and can't seem to grip my emotions about it. This disease now controls my life, I can't work, I have a difficult time with relationships, and my pain is so severe at times I can't move. On top of it all my Rheumatologists just retired. I am unsure of my new doctor and hate to come off as a whiner. I am scared to ask for a lupus test because to some degree I don't think I could handle another diagnosis. When I look at the signs and symptoms of lupus, it seems as though I own them all. Not sure if you all can help, just maybe some kind words to help me along. Thanks.View Thread