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SeattleRon

Joined: 11/23/2012

My Story:

I am a young 55 yo fit runner and daily pull ups married and love my wife. We have a good marriage but physical intimacy has become a huge FEAR. I faked it for years. I never experienced intimacy, un conditional love, trust in others to have my best interests at heart. By age 7 I began escaping hidden away for hours, not missed, fantasizing about what my life would be like when I got out of that house at 18. About 10 in the basement where I went to be hidden I discovered my fathers stash of porn both pictures of naked men and women. I had a negative relationship with my mother and minimal with my dad. I was awed at what my body would look like when I was a man. I added to my family fantasy mb to those images. There were a couple things show and tell with a neighbor boy but on my way home from a date one night I was stopped at a street light and noticed the guy stopped next to me motioning me to roll my window down. He was a college guy and hollered, "Want a beer follow me"

I was scarred I knew I should not do this but i DID. At his place he grabbed two beers and we sat down in the living room. He asked some questions about myself for a bit then got up and said, I am going to change.He came back with just a towel around his waist. He looked like the guys in my dads mags. Then he sez, "There is another towel for yu on the bed." I got up and changed.

He asked me some more questions for awhile like how many inches I had and I am getting aroused. He slaps me on my knee and says "follow me". In his bedroom he lays on the bed with his towel on and pats next the mattress for me to do the same. I get rock hard when he touches my chest. It all felt so great. No kissing, no sucking and after bit he just had me JO with him. When I left I felt shame...no one could know I did this. One the way out he said "If you see my car out front yu are welcome to knock on the door. I probably drove by twice a day checking and knocked 6-8 times that summer. Oh and he also said, "Don't feel weird about doing this I have several guys just like you who knock"

What this has lead to for me is using annomyous sex with guys as a substitute for the intimacy I have this FEAR over because it does not require it. I tried a FWB with a married pilot for 6 months but tired of it I think because it lacked the danger excitement, and he would want to do it when I was not interested but I felt I needed to do my part.

I like the posts I have read here

One other thing I want to share and ask a question. I have always had this fantasy of being forced taken by a guy. Well, this summer I am out working with no shirt on and old baggy sweat pants with worn our elastic on my old sprts car in the driveway and this shirtless guy out on his run sees the car and and comes up to me to chat about the car. He asks me what I am doing. "I am trying to tighten up fitting to stop a fluid leak and I am not sure what tools I will need. He is standing there fondling his abs and pecs. Never understood why guys do that in front other talking? He suggests I slide under the car and tell him what tool to get me. I do and he is kneeling down beside me from waist down. handing me tools he is touching my chest. I can tell I am getting a tent in my sweat pants. When I get it tightened and slide out I am so embarrassed and he has this big smile on his face looking at body. I have not seen him since but cannot stop thinking about it.

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admittedly I have struggled with same sex attraction and acted on it and at times it...

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you and Rocker are great. I had not checked Webmd for a few weeks until yesterday I got...

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you and Rocker are great. I had not checked Webmd for a few weeks until yesterday I got a direct e mail from Jes Walters about if I was enjoying my masturbating ....

So here I am back. I only joined webmd a month or so back. What I think I found here is a group of guys who are very comfortable with their sexuality. Let me first say that my early life family sit resulted in me by 10 miss using my sexuality as my only emotional coping tool.

Sex never evolved from being a fast jerkoff.. It never became intimate..just an orgasm, fun. I never had the privacy or the time to relax, prolong, edge to enjoy mb. I wanted to stop anonymous sex with guys (orgasms) at 20 but I could not stay stopped very long. I did not yet know I was addicted to this behavior. I married at 25 not having ao for almost a year assuming I was over meeting anonymously with guys but it came back.

While I enjoy reading your candid posts about how talking with a buddy can get you aroused, or seeing some good-looking guy naked in your gym lockeroom, for me I need to address my core issue first. For some reason I think some of the guys on Webmd may have some good helpful insight or experiences to share with me.

Here is the deal. I am happy with my marriage but I have a lot of shame resulting my withholding of physical intimacy with my wife for several years and want to face and overcome my fear of intimacy. We deserve better.

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When other little boys were receiving from their mosts their unconditional love, affirmation, touch I was not. I did not even get conditional love, I knew I was not wanted or loved, but constant criticism was abundant. I evolved by 7 that women were not trustworthy, they did not have my best interest at heart. Stay away from them. I became afraid of them.

I over rode it with Lust and Alchol for our first years but suddenly fear of non performance began to overcome in bed and nothing kills arousal like fear so I began withholding that it was better than facing my fear getting help. I have not ao with any men for almost 2 years. Weird that most of them were other married guys doing the same thing.

Yes, I have male good friends. nothing sexual. I know I need a few friends that we can communicate openly and a bunch of acquaintance type guys. My goal here is to overcome my fear and experience healthy sexual intimacy with my wife first. Weird, but my mind wants to tell me that when I have accomplished this with my wife I might be able to enjoy hanging out naked non sexual with guy friends. Like going to a sweat lodge

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Hairy, I assume he does not do this when ladies are present? I have found myself...

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