I couldn't agree more with you about the hurt that I am causing her for no fault of hers (even without her knowing about it).
I know one thing for sure that I would absolutely hate to end my marriage for at least 2 reasons. First of all, my wife is an amazing woman. Secondly, regardless of my urges, I love her a lot. I know it sounds crazy considering a few times I've fooled around outside of my marriage. But, I do love her.View Thread
First of all, I stumbled across this forum by chance and am glad to see a lot of useful discussion and viewpoints.
Anyways, I'm a married male in my early 30s. I realized early on that I was bi and fooled around with guys quite a bit before my marriage. I got married about 4.5 yrs ago. Needless to say that I love my wife a lot and we have a really good marriage. However, the urge to be with a guy is insane at times. I suppressed my feelings for some time after getting married. And then finally gave in (about an year so after getting married) and started playing with guys again. Of course, I struggle with the guilt factor both before and after.
So, now I've gone without having a m4m experience for more than 6 months. The guilt was just killing me. Recently, I started talking with a married guy online and we exchanged pictures and stuff. He is the same age as mine and we have a ton of things in common. We finally decided to meet after chatting for several days. But, I pulled out (no pun intended) at the last minute. I also realized that there is a good possibility of our professional paths crossing. So, that was a factor as well. I really liked this guy a lot and explained my situation. He was very considerate but has been trying to convince me to give this a try. I really want to meet this guy but worried out messing up our professional lives.
My apologies for my long rant. But, I thought I could really use some advice. Thanks for reading this. I'd love to hear from you guys.View Thread