I think I have a different experience than you. I have no best guesses and I don't search for memories. There is just NO memory/"feeling memory". I have some memories of specific incidents/occurrences, nearly all involve strong emotion. But I remember them as snapshots. Twice (that I can remember!) I forced memories of my daughter as a baby into my memory-I knew by that time that everything would go away. Example: I was holding her next to her crib, getting ready to put her to bed, and I felt so much love for her. So I told myself-"I am going to remember this moment forever" (sounds schmaltzy, I know). But I do remember it-like a snapshot, not the feeling. Other memories I have nearly always involve a negative emotion-embarrassment usually. I am certain that I was never abused or had other emotional trauma-I have discussed this with a counselor and she agrees that I have no signs of PTSD. I have 4 siblings and my parents are still living-we are all VERY close and get together at least once a year. I have never shared this with them; they are the source of my memories and I pretend that I know what they are talking about. I am convinced that this is a physiologic problem, not psychological. My brain is either incapable of converting short term to long term memory (or very inefficient at it), or for some reason long term memories can't be accessed. I favor the former (sadly). I will always want to know the answer (why), but I think I have run out of routes of exploration. Thank you!View Thread
I have the exact same problem; thank you for describing it so eloquently. I didn't tell anyone for years, for some reason I was embarrassed as though it were my fault. I finally spoke to my doctor, who seemed sympathetic, if skeptical. He referred me to a neurologist who had absolutely no idea. ("You were probably just born that way.") I had a brain MRI which showed no structural abnormalities. Just from reading, I lean toward a problem with the hippocambus, but results of the MRI make me think it is a functional problem as opposed to a structural one. I also tried to email an expert in memory, but she blew me off. I think they (MDs) think I'm trying to get them to "fix" me, but I don't have any delusions about that. I just want to know why. I'm 58, so I'm also starting to worry about what relationship it might have to dementia, early or otherwise. I also excelled in school, earned 2 BS degrees, and I'm a successful medical professional. And THANK YOU for letting me know that I'm not alone.View Thread
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