Hi there! I wanted to welcome you to this smart and supportive community. I hope you hear from your dermatologist sooner than later - don't hesitate to pick up the phone and check in with him.
I also wanted to point you towards some resources you could use when you are feeling overwhelmed. Hurting yourself is never the answer! Please click this link: WebMD Crisis Resource Links You can find suicide hotline phone numbers as well as addiction resources. Please do pick up the phone immediately or call 911 if you feel that you are in danger of hurting yourself!
Here is a 2 year old post also about itching: Going Crazy With Uncontrolled Itching - the members discuss various diagnosis and share similar stories. Also, from our Skin Problem and Treatment Health Center, here is an overview of itching: Your Skin, Pruritus, and Itching Perhaps one of these links will give you something new to explore with your doctors.
I'm not really sure what your question is about hypertension.
For me, the New Year is a great way to evaluate and pick a goal that might not be life3 changing but is on my "bucket list". As a working mom with 2 young kids, I appreciate the reminder January 1st that there are things I want to achieve.
Rachelin - that sounds great! I hope your med works and you are taking photos soon! A clean house? That's a goal I don't think I'll ever achieve 100%.