Hello 77grace, My drug of choice when using was alcohol.When I soberiety came over me as years past, I wanted nothing to do with any drugs. So when I went after pain meds it wasn't to get high - it was because of pain. The counselor in the treatment center when I got away from the stalker told me when we have pain - no matter how bad "we suck it up". I found myself wishing my pain upon her, a person I grew out being. 77grace take care of yourself first just call your nephew if he's important to you. He can always come to you. I used to be very outgoing - a mover & shaker now I stay home alot. I have really no friends but that has come down to my choice. Can I call you Grace? Wish you a sunshine day. DebView Thread
Hi 77grace, He was the doctor I was with before and than after the car accident (2007) that started the continued nightmare with my body. But I never was on any pain meds, at time I used message, physical therapy, and cordisone injections. At first I was being just treated for my back - spondylolisthesis. But after the accident disc ruptured in neck (but wasn't caught right away so pushed on nerve and when woke from surgery whole lower arm was on fire - still have pain in hand & wrist). I continued with that dr no pain meds but on going pain. Back hurt much more too. I was trying to maintain my soberiety. He was good at pushing pain meds but was reluctant to give to me when I beged for something to take edge off. I researched optioned and asked his advise - he offered nothing. Than he kept uping the doze which I would take back, after the 3rd time I just filled. He was going through a divorce and was making more mistakes. I would call him on them, not sure what exactly happen, but I was on pain meds and no doctor - but I know I quit him cause I didn't want to be on pain meds against my soberiety. So much happened and it got yecky before I did get totally off them. Than I went a year in severe pain with my back, so bad my feet were tingling. I knew the nerves in both legs were being crushed. An MRI which my regular doctor knew about showed a fracture and bulged disc which wasn't good with the spondy thing. (that is a whole story in it's self). Everything about using pain meds has to do the fact about me being an addict and a pain med addict. Which I was because no one would listen or help me. They don't do that here. My son just doesn't - wouldn't want to take a chance and put his family through and nightmares. I understand him. I am just now understanding this managed care and that there are 2 doctors that "got my back". The addict inside me still says this is wrong or this is just an addicts dream. But if I do this to myself the mess all comes again. I have nerve damage down the whole left side of my body, fibromyalgia, and arthritis. Can't get enough cordisone injestions to calm the joints they say need to be replaced and I am only 52. That's my pain but I keep moving, gotta. Take care. DebView Thread
Sounds like you got somethings from others to consider. All that you are going through maybe a few things. As for Serotonin Syndrome, I learned of this from my pharmacist not my doctor. So now I carry that info with me since doctors don't look for it (make them aware). Sounds like you also have some medical going on too. I suggust you see a medical doctor, tell them about test results. We get so centered on our pain that we forget about the rest of us. Be sure to get regular physicals if possible or at least mini check ups. Take care, hang in.View Thread
This past week I learn the different between managed care and addict. I have sunk to doctor seeking because I had the wrong doctor. He was giving me care, than cut me off. What does one do? Boy did I get into a mess and scared and it made this even harded to believe and accept. But not I understand it and accept it. I have not shared this with my family still. I have 5 wonderful - beautiful Grandchildren I am sure I will be cut off from. No questions asked or answered. Just make sure your doctor knows your are taking one more when needed, than way your prescription will be rite. I am glad though that I have the addiction background, cause I have a friend on managed care that I worry about. I think alcohol is a deadly mixure. We do need to be extra responsible in our care. Good luck to you Grace.View Thread
Hi Grace, The pain was worst than the brain clarity, so I went back on. However, I decided to go see a Psychiatrist. Many on here talk about getting a addiction specialist to help out, in my backward area, that would won't work. In the state of ND their goal is to get you OFF drugs - ALL DRUGS. The psychiatrist I went to see was new to our community and she seems open to helping. I told her right out if you want me off, I'm not coming back. We also changed my anti-depressant because I kept having "serotonin syndrome", so look that up and watch for that. I think besides the community and my family, the person I needed most on my side was me! I needed and need me on my side no matter what anyone else says or thinks, because this is about helping me be more productive. If I'm not happy, nothing is working. I just need to accept all this myself. I am so AA whipped that and filled with guilt, that I too need to stop fighting me and be ok. I am doing nothing wrong. I AM DOING NOTHING WRONG!View Thread
IHi, I like to look stuff up and sometimes I come across information that I find to be very helpful. Anyway I found this website, if you got some time check it out. It has some interesting info in it. Peace Deb-b http://www.adoctorm.com/docs/pain.htm Management of Acute and Chronic Pain and Cancer Pain in the Addicted Patient. Seddon R. Savage, MDView Thread
It's tough at times, because the pain can be worse some days than others. But my goal is is to just keep it mininimal and bearable. I don't want to be drugged or keep upping if I don't have too, cause I know that can and has happened. Cause regardless of what I want to believe, inside I am an "addict" and I still have to be aware of that fact. That's why we struggle with guilt and all that that crap that could take us down. We are social people that need to talk and need encouragement. Too many communities are short support for chronic pain let alone people with addiction. Many doctors have no idea and if you live in a small town, it is worse for you. I went off my pain med for a short time and was surprized at how much more clear my mind was to thoughts and feelings. So now that has me thorn between wanting that reality and having NO FRICKEN PAIN. Where is the middle, the answer? I have an appointment with my doctor this week, maybe she has some answers.View Thread
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