Hi ladies I will be 38 Monday and am wanting to have another baby before I get to old for more. I have three living teenagers and after the birth of the third we had my tubes tied. I did this thinking I was done and wanted nothing more to do with putting my family at risk for premature births. My youngest was 6 weeks premature and has been a fighter for everything he has his heart set on. I feel like I gave up on my faith and was doing only what war right at the time, now I feel like I have more of my self to give and would love to share my life with more babies.
I want to get pregnant so bad I feel like I am being selfish and only caring about what I want. My husband is excited either way if we have more babies or not. Am I being selfish or not? Should I just give up and be happy with what I have or should I try to find what is lost in my soul and keep trying to have more babies? I know God is giving and will grant the desires of those he wishes to but also do not want to push it and end up with problems in my health if we do. I fight the flesh in my life as to why did I have my tubes tied, why didn't I just walk away and not do it, and what have I done wrong to deserve this. Now I have begun to let God handle all my hearts wishes and know that no mater what if it is his desire for my family to have more members then so be it.View Thread