I am missing the "usual" comoradory I have received from all of you on previous boards. Do any of you have blogs that you've written with your journey? Reaching out for hope cultivators! Reading others journeys brings me back into perspective and helps me keep a clear head. Thank you in advance.
Hello, even though I'm not currently pregnant, I still feel extremely close to the amazing women on this board. I love hearing all you stories, and it keeps me hopeful. Since our MC in may we have been taking our mandated 2 cycles off, and hope to start fresh again at the end of August! Hope to see you all soon. Prayers needed!
Kris, you've been doing a great job at the forum host! How have you been doing? I see your having BOYS!! Congrats!!
Thank you for your thoughts. I truly felt the support and the kindness from this board. I've been praying for the strength and courage to write this post.
Unfortunately, this past week we suffered a miscarriage. I had always thought that enduring infertility treatments was the worst it could ever get, but finding out that the little heartbeat had faded and the physical pain of a natural miscarriage topped all of that infertility pain. My emotions are frazzled and our hearts are broken. I am experiencing, one, by one all of the stages of grief. I can honestly say I've never felt like this before, it's so shameful and emotionally draining. I'm angry and have lost compassion for others, which is out of character for me. With that being said, each day gets brighter, and more hopeful. Luckily, we hadn't told anyone, but I'm not sure what's worse, telling everyone what your going through, or going through it in the dark. Wiping your tears before walking in the office in the morning and frequent fake smiles?
I'm open to answering any questions people have about natural miscarriage, as I could not find a lot of information about it, it was pretty traumatic for me, and wished I could have know what to expect.
This too shall pass, and I hope to be add my name again to the list, but for now, cheers, I'm going to enjoy a glass of Cabernet.