Thanks ladies. No, no betas. I only ever did betas with my DD, but I always got an early (6ish week) u/s. This time I've decided not to do anything until around 9-10w when I see my midwife for the first time. So 5 more weeks! I'm definitely a little nervous about it, but I'm just going to try to "zen out", whatever that means, about it all, lol. I'm 5 weeks yesterday, so this is my first fear week, but so far no spotting or anything, and I'm already feeling some stretching/aching in my uterus, and some mild m/s. I'm also on a stronger progesterone than I was on last month, so that makes me feel better too. Thanks again! View Thread
Hi ladies! I'm Kailah. I've been here on and off since 2006. I m/c twin back in May 2006, finally got pg with my DD in November 2006. Then I was back here again with DS1 in 2008, and DS2 in 2010. Last month we had another m/c at 5weeks. We named that baby Selah. 4 short weeks later, (well actually less, ha - POAS addicts unite!) I find myself with a BFP and scared to death. Please send lots of sticky and calming vibes!View Thread
Once home, I wanted to get into my birth tub right away so I changed clothes while Zarik finished getting it ready. This only took 5 minutes and Zarik made me call the midwife and doula while I waited. They both said they'd be right there. This was about 3:20. I jumped into the tub and contractions immediately picked up. I had a few longer breaks which were nice, but the contractions made me feel like I would split apart. I looked at Zarik and said "Screw active labor, I'm in transition!" It took the doula and midwife about and hour to get there. The doula got there first and as she put her purse down she stopped, looked at Zarik who was in the tub with me as I was having a contraction and said "Is she pushing?!" He just nodded. The midwife got there 3 minutes later and they quickely and quietly got everything they needed ready. The next 30 minutes were spent with me in such constant pain that I couldn't tell when contractions started or stopped. Zarik described me as a defiant 2 year old because I kept yelling at them that baby wasn't coming fast enough and it hurt SOOOOOO bad. During the last few minutes of pushing I was just focused on getting him out when the midwife had to ask me if my contraction had stopped and if so to stop pushing. I honestly hadn't realized it had because I was in so much pain in my pelvis. I waited for the next one, my water broke on the first push, I have 2 more pushes and he was OUT!! PRAISE GOD!! It was 5pm. Zarik almost got to catch him, but I twisted around at the last minute and caught him myself, lol. Now the only complication happened - his cord was so short it snapped as he popped out,spewing blood out. They had to grab a clamp and clap Ezekiah's side, while my side just went back up! It took about 10 minutes before I delivered the placenta, which wasn't bad and it looked great. I just sat in the tub during that time and tried to nurse. Ezekiah was telling us off though, which made it difficult, haha! After that I got out and moved to a blow up bed we had set up for after, and I successfully got him latched on. After about 30 minutes or so the midwife did the assesment and he was 7lbs 2oz, 20.5 inches long, and a 14cm head! Our biggest baby, lol! They also "dated" him at acting and looking like a 40 week 5 day baby - over a week younger than when he was born. I guess he just needed the extra time! I don't remember the apgars, but I'm sure they were high.
Now I'm just on a baby high while I snuggle with our newest li'l miracle. View Thread
Ezekiah's birth story begins with desparation. Monday, August 16th, I was 11 days past my due date. I was in pain, I was anxious, Zarik was looking at rescheduling his checkride for a second time, my mom had just extended her trip out here for the second time and I'd had a bunch of "false starts" aka prodromal labor. I kept telling Zarik that this game was NOT fun anymore. So that night I decided to take castor oil. 2oz in a glass of OJ. An hour later I was so sick to my stomach and tired and just plain sore that I was bawling on Zarik's shoulder about how I just couldn't do this anymore and the only reason I wasn't begging for a c-section was I knew if I did that I would never bond with this baby because I was so upset with him over how much pain I was in. I finally calmed down and went to bed. Sure enough I was up and in the bathroom several times that night.
Tuesday, August 17th, I woke up with decently hard contractions that were 4-5 minutes apart. The castor oil had worked! I was still depressed from the night before and I really didn't want to be around the kids so I stayed hidden in my room for a while. And then I took a shower. Which spaced the contracts out to 10 minutes. I was frustrated. About noon Zarik convinced me to go to the hardware store and Starbucks with him. Then when we got home my mom and the kids packed up and went to my sisters house. I'd updated my doula and midwife throughout the day and finally about 8pm I called my doula in. She watched me for a bit then suggested we try to sleep. The contractions spaced to about 15 minutes during the night but required help through them.
Wednesday, August 18th found my doula going home, and me STILL in "just" early labor. I had a midwife appointment at 1, and decided to get into the chiropractor as well. The chiro spent a LOT of time with me making sure I was well adjusted and going over some emotional points in the body. Then we saw the midwife who checked me and found me at a very stretch 6cm!! You should have seen the look on her face, lol! The combination of the adjustment and finding I was 6cm relaxed me enough that I was hungry. So Zarik and I went to Panera for lunch. After that we had to get his tux for a wedding this weekend. By the time we left Men's Warehouse I told him we'd better get home as quick as we could - 45 minutes up our mountain pass. I definitely felt myself shift into active labor during the drive home.
Doing ok. Frustrated that baby boy isn't here yet. Nervous about actually making it to 42 weeks where we have to start talking about what's next as far as induction stuff plus legal stuff (may have to transfer to an OB). Frustrated that I feel so much pressure from the "outside" (schedules, other people, etc) to have him now when I'd really like to just wait on him and his timing. We're just trying to stay busy now. My mom is staying ANOTHER extra week to help out (Yay!!). DH is to the point of making up projects to keep busy, lol, and mom and I have been doing way too much shopping, haha!
Hopefully I'm not posting another one of these next Monday, lol!
Unfortunately I don't think it ever goes away. I'm pregnant with my 3rd PAL baby right now (and I'm gonna be pg forever, lol - I'm at 41 weeks) and just a month ago was diagnosed with PTSD that had to do with my loss and c/s. I've really struggled this pg with fears about the wellbeing of baby. I had a really bad breakdown about 36 weeks and ended up seeking out a councelor to help me and it was the best think I could do for me and this baby. I've been able to calm down and think more positively about things being ok instead of disaster. For me tomorrow is another big milestone as it's when I had my c/s with my DD, but I know I can get through it thanks to my wonderful councelor and DH.
Thank you! I so need them right now! I had a massage and saw my chiro about the time you were posting this, and since my cx's DID pick up after my last chiro appt last Thursday, I'm hoping this double dose kicks things into gear! ;DView Thread