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Joined: 02/12/2012
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Hello ladies (and possibly some fathers). I just wanted to introduce myself and lend out my story so then I'm not the person that comments on every post that i feel needs commenting and seems like i have no idea on what im talking about.

My name is Jessica and I'm almost 17 years old. I'm currently 14 weeks pregnant and my parents only found out a week ago >.< My boyfriend Josh and I have been together for a little over a year. I suffer from PTSD from molestation by a family member and other very bad family problems, and depression (it also runs in my family), a sleep disorder, and what was a serious cutting problem.

My boyfriend and I decided to have a child in November when i was on the break of killing myself and had nearly killed myself the night when he had proposed this. I have always wanted to be a mother. I didn't care what age or what people thought of me. It had been what i always wanted. The night of my major break down he said he'd promise to get me pregnant and be there as a father. He said that he'd do this, do give me a glimmer of hope in my life, and that there would be someone who needed me. he knows i already have a soft spot for children and knew if i was pregnant i wouldnt have the thought of killing myself or cutting

And in December after an argument i had with my parents, I was feeling pretty low again. Josh just said before i do anything extreme just to take a pregnancy test. and i did. and sure enough i was in fact pregnant. That day, I rid of pills, threw out my razor blades, and started to become this happier person knowing that the man i loved and i were going to be having a child together.

Now, Josh is working his ass off in school, and is also looking for a job while also having to put up with my crazy pregnant ass. He is still here and is really excited. He has his reasons for also wanting a child but he says he wont tell me till our baby is born. I've been working hard in school too and hopefully i can catch up and get ahead on my credits over the summer.

A week ago i finally told my mom i was pregnant. She promptly told everyone else (I was scared to death to tell my dad). We talked but they understood that it was because i was suicidal.

So now that I've told you where im coming from and my background....


I look forward to talking to all you amazing people. Just dont give up hope and know things will turn out all right.

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