The Kindle ebook reader is definitely not necessary for you since I sent you a copy. But I like having it as an option for folks to don't want to pay for a paperback book plus shipping. In the meantime, I hope you continue to enjoy the story!View Thread
timara41, I haven't seen any indicatin in your post as to why you should stay with this guy. The verbal abuse is more concerning to me than the one time physical incident, because it's something that's happened multiple times.
People who think of themselves as strong can get in even bigger trouble than otherwise if they deny that someone else is controlling them. Dump this guy, get a restraining order, and take some time off from date anyone to find yourself. You ARE strong, you don't need a man for context or validation. If your b/f doesn't want you going to the gym and is acting jealous, he doesn't need you. If you are afraid of him, take some self defense classes.
Just my gut feeling, offered in concern and respect.View Thread
You know, it's really amazing how the brain works when all the hormone levels and such are in balence. Also, you don't have to wait anymore to see it in print... see my other post... and it'll be available in Kindle tomorrow. I didn't enable DRM rights protection so it should be readable by other readers.View Thread
I promised everyone I'd tell them when this happened so I'm telling you. My book is finally available for purchase or viewing. The Kindle edition should be coming out tomorrow. If anyone wants to see it, here it is: https://www.createspace.com/5304449
I'm just really happy to be done! It feels nice to finish this.View Thread
I'm cautious because I've been burned too often - I've thought I've found a good solution, and then something happens to shatter my hopes. My confidence is better this time because I find I'm using all those skills I've learned here and never could apply correctly.
I've got to tell you, it feels so nice to actually experience some self worth and greater awareness! It's so great to be almost clear of the brain fog! I felt it set in just a touch last night when I was tired, but I was able to shake it off pretty quickly and most importantly, I was aware of it.
I want to celebrate but I'll wait till I get through one more weekend without any big fights. By the way, the novel is a few days away from being in print.View Thread
I'm finally making some progress. For the first time in a while, I've had a weekend with no major fights. A few times we had minor misunderstandings but were able to talk them out without either of us getting too upset. So I wanted to come back here and report, so that maybe others could benefit, especially considering that I've had this problem off and on for a long time. (I'm talking about the misunderstandings with my spouse, the brain fog, the confused and difficult to manage feelings, and my own trouble in 'growing up.')
The biggest thing that's happened is I've finally gotten a doctor to look at me and they prescribed me Synthroid. It turned out my thyroid levels were low and that was causing a lot of my depression, poor sleep, and brain fog. Now my memory is starting to work better so I can actually retain things more easily.
Along with this, I decided I finally wanted to become a good, upstanding human being so I've been reading self improvement articles like no tomorrow. Coupled with increased emotional availability and resiliency due to the better thyroid levels, the information's been sticking and doing some good.
I've been getting some good brain food, drinking green tea, and getting vitamins to help support this.
Consequently, I am having an easier time feeling my own authentic emotions and therefore caring about things, and I'm finally able to really love my spouse the way I should. That's making it so I don't go off into brain fog/zombie land at the drop of a hat. I don't feel like a worthless piece of crap, and I treat my spouse the way she should be treated, with dignity and respect. I am also having an easier time taking constructive criticism and not thinking it's an insult.