I don't want to go into a lengthy reply when all I have to do is, ask you to read what Dr. Becker-Phelps told me.
It is like one and the same story, so her reply could just as easily be your answer, also?
Anytime we lose someone that meant a lot to us, our hearts never mend, the pain just gets lost to our day to day living. We never even forget them, they get pushed to the back of our minds, to be recalled from time to time. Memories, good or bad, are with us always.
All we can do for those we lost, is to keep them in our hearts and minds forever.
Wow, you really are a remarkable person, Deb. Even with all of the problems you are having, you still have the heart of gold! You wish all of us a great weekend when yours will probably not be? I am so sorry Debbie! I know losing this therapist that you trust so much, has to be hard on you! I wish I could help you.
Do you think taking your name off the appointment list is a good idea? I know that some places will suspend you indefinitely if you voluntarily remove your name? You may need one someday, and be denied because you took your own name off the list? Know what I mean? You might want to put it back on, just in case you do find another one to trust? It is your decision, after all, but there may come a day when you really need one, right? It is always better safe than sorry!
Debbie, I want to wish you a great weekend!!! Take care, and I shall catch you later!
I had a girlfriend pretty fast when I had moved back home after my marriage break up. This was one of my little sister's friends from down the street. I had just come down the back steps to throw away an empty box when I first saw her. Now, you have to remember, this is back when my drug and alcohol problems were ready to break wide open. I came back in the kitchen and sat down for a cold glass of iced tea, when my sister introduced us. I checked her out, and she me. When I got up to go finish unpacking I asked her to join me in a little happy smoke, she accepted. As we were sitting on the bed, we kissed and it went from there. Well, about two months into this relationship, my sister tells me that she is still sleeping with her old boyfriend. I confronted her, she swore she would stop. Needless to say, she did not.
When I found her in the back of his van, this being the third time, I told he see ya! Well, she kept begging me to take her back, and I really felt sorry for her, she couldn't stop this two timing behavior, no matter how hard I tried, she was hell bent on sleeping with two separate people all the time. She said it was her addiction. Well, I was hell bent on my own destruction so who was I to preach to anyone else? This is one of the ladies I would have loved to marry, but even I knew it would never last.
Much later on, I met this incredibly good looking lady. She was ten years younger than my 36, but she didn't seem to care about age at all? We started very slowly, and as we went along, she described her first boyfriend, and then husband. He started abusing her right after their son was born. And by abuse I mean, he would punch her right in the face for the smallest infraction's. He kicked her down three flights of stairs while she was holding their little boy. She had tried her level best to shield the boy, but he hit his head on the steps and started crying. This poor excuse of a human being would then apologize profusely until she would forgive him. That time was the last time, bless her heart! This thing she married had money, his family was wealthy. Eventually, since she had no job, he got custody of her boy. That broke her heart.
After a year and a half of dating, I was about to ask her to marry when she just up and went back to him? Every time I saw her after that, I tried to help her, but she just kept going back. Bruise after bruise, time after time she would leave, and then go right back. This broke my heart, totally! I couldn't save her! My brother called one day, sometime later when I was trying to recapture a marriage that would never be, and told me he had killed her. I drank a lot more after that.
Wow, some sad life I have had, eh? Well, you have to roll with the punches (sorry, no pun intended) right? I may still be ducking and diving, but now, they are only jabs, not punches.
Sorry for being so long winded, but I wanted to set up my examples!!! That last one, I beat myself up over her! Racking my brain, where did I go wrong, what else could I have said, or done???
I hope you are feeling better today? I am really starting to worry about you! I know you hate to have someone attack you for no reason that is clear? I really hurt for you over this agony of self doubt. You are stronger than you think! Plus, you have the power of your family here, to back you anytime you need us! As you know, we are always here for you! I told you a while back now, that I feel as if you are already a sister to me, remember? That hasn't changed!
You are right, Deb, we are indeed a family! And as your brother, I hurt when you hurt, especially when I can't fix it myself. Roh feels the same way, I would think? She hurts when you hurt, too! So, if we can't fix it for you, and Dr. Leslie (who is also a part of this family) can't help either, where else will you turn for help? You may need to accept the fact that you need that C.M. now, more than before? If this C.M. is the only one you have to turn to for help, then I hope you will allow her to help you the best way she sees fit? Yep, there are times in our lives where we might have to bite our tongues to get to where we need to be?
Debbie, please do NOT let this situation get the better of you?! Ignore those who post only to hurt someone. Words may sting a little, but they will not kill you, so, the more you can take, the stronger you get! Remember, WE are here for you, any time you need us, O.K.?
I hope this surgery is something you can get, and get right back up? As you probably already remember, my last fusion surgery on my neck failed? Well, now I have to have the worst possible type of procedure, this time, they have to go in through the back of my neck. The pain will be worse than the last one, so the nurse and now my Dr. tell me. Worse??? How could anything be worse than the last one that didn't even work? Well, they have both assured me that it will be worse. I have to do this, if I ever hope to stop the erosion going on, right? Right! So, if I can take it, so can you. Now, get yourself in to see the Dr. that will be doing your surgery, and make the appointment for surgery. I do not know what it is, but when you get the date and time set up, I will be more than happy to send you all of my good vibes, okay??? Just let me know.
Well, Deb, I suppose I have typed enough for now? I still have others to type to, so I shall say Ta Ta for now. Take care, and have a wonderful day!
You see, Dem? We here are YOUR friend! Whoever this person is, they don't seem to want to even try to be helpful? Listen to what we are saying to you, WE are your friend, that person is not!
You have friends here, you don't leave your friends because someone else said something to you, no, you stick with those who want you to be happy! And healthy! I thought I would throw that one in, seeing as how you need surgery?
Come on, Deb, you stuck up for yourself, why leave now??? You are in our hearts also, Debbie! Don't go breaking our hearts over something like this? Stay strong!