I think I must have said something not quite right? I am not using this hospital here in my town, no, the V.A. uses the surgery center in Dakota Dunnes, S.D., so if I did use this one here, it would cost me. I asked them that the first time, and they said I could use this one if something felt wrong, or got too bad to handle?
As for the church(s), no thanks anyway. Besides, Mike my neighbor has offered to come watch movies on his off hours, and his wife will check in on me periodically. Awesome!!! He works 12 hours, and she works the opposite 12 hours, I will be in good hands! Also, I think once she see's this big, beautiful t.v., she too will want to come watch movies?! I finally officially met her the night before last at the hardware store. They are super nice people, Mike is one like my brother, a tender heart'ed person, and of course, she is too, as like minds attract? Oh, she is half Hawaiian like my adopted little sister! I haven't told her that, yet, but I will.
I thank you Dr. Leslie, for your help, and your concern for my welfare!!! Thanks for the well wish, I can use all I can get!!!
Alright Debbie, what is it you are so scared of? What have you seen? How are you caught in this emotional trap? And why are you still not living for Debbie like we have all said before?
You are scaring me here, a little. Please talk to us, if I can't help, maybe Dr. Leslie can? One thing is for sure, you need some help right now!!!
If this is something you can't, or don't want to discuss with us here, please call that hotline Dr. Leslie mentioned, okay? Please don't be scared, take charge and do something for your own safety!!! Get out of there if you can, go stay with a friend, or someone you can trust?!!!
You see? This is why I am so happy I found this site!!! I have more support right here, than I do anywhere else!!! How can that be topped? It can't, it is as simple as that!!! Together, we are like family! Even when you are alone, family is one click away!!!
I got lucky the day I found this site! I was so alone then, but now I have family close enough to reach out and touch. That, is a great feeling!!!
I did all Hospice, but they only manage end of life situations. I have to hope this is not that, right? However, this is surgery, and you are probably right about this, but, I did okay my last time, I am sure I will this one, also.
I am not a religious person, so that rules out church's, or their organizations. After that, I don't really think anyone else would, or could babysit with me? Hmmm, maybe I could get one of the people that help the disabled to come babysit me? Now that, would be cool if that could happen! Then I would have an adult to play cards with, or games on my big t.v.?
Yeah, I can't think of any one person, nor organization that would do this sort of thing? Its okay, while it wouldn't bother me much, I don't think I will need anyone to do anything for me that I cannot do myself? I certainly wouldn't want some big, hairy chested buy taking showers with me so he could wash my "back"??? No, no that is not happening!!! A female, maybe? But not a hairy guy!!! BLIKH blakh!!! Coodies!!! UGH!!!!!!!!
Thank you for all of the suggestions, Dr. Leslie, but I think I will go it alone on this one!?
Dr. Leslie is right! You need not worry about it sounding like a book, I do it all the time! No one has said it was bad? No one!!! If I can do it, you can too, right? Yes you can!!! By now, you are familiar with my posts, and answers to other's posts, right? Well, you can see how long they are, no one has shot me for it, yet? LOL!!! However long it takes you, even if you have to post more on another page, you know, when you run out of space in one, start another where you left off. Everyone here knows how chatty I can get. Just ask them, or look at some I have done? It is VERY o.k. to be overly long, as long as you get what you need down, so be it!!!
I am looking forward to hearing one specific ordeal, so don't hesitate, get it off your chest! This site is for your benefit!!! We are here to help, or ask for help ourselves. This site is like Vegas, what happens here, or what is said here, does not leave this site! At least that, is how it should be, and I hope it is?
Hey guys, I'm sorry I forgot to tell you, my nurse called just a little while ago, and said the new x-ray was normal, so the shadow was just that. A shadow! Wow, I cannot believe the nightmares I had last night!!! What would they have done if it wasn't a shadow? Woo weee, I would not want to know!!! As long as it was painless, I would rather it remain anonymous!
Who wouldn't eh? I would rather it be sudden, than know about it and live with that thought that long? I watched Joe deteriorate before my eyes, not a pretty sight!!! I watched his face, the last night he had upon the ground, how he struggled against the near overdose of morphine, and his family's wishes he could stay above ground? He wanted them to let go of him, but they wouldn't, he looked up at me with such love and fear, I almost died of sadness right there and then! He rolled his eyes towards his family, then looked back at me, he wanted me to tell them to let him go, he was done. He was in so much agony, it broke my heart, I told them he wanted to be left alone, don't hold him in your arms you are hurting him more. Finally, they relented, and let him lie still. I saw relief then, he was done here, and he knew it.
I finally got his family to leave so he could sleep, that was 11:30pm., and he died the next morning around 8, or so? I missed seeing him by just minutes. His ex-wife said he never opened his eyes again after everyone left last night. The Hospice worker who sat by his bedside the whole way, said that. I went over to the bed, sat down in the chair, leaned over and whispered "see ya later, buddy, I love you and I am gonna miss you like crazy")! I patted his folded hands, got up, talked to his son and ex, then walked to the elevater, I couldn't see where the button thingy was, so I walked back to Joe's room, his ex took one look at me and hugged me before I fell. I was crying so hard, it made me feel so weak. She saved me that morning! She invited me for coffee.
I can't believe I can still cry that hard, but I just did? That emotion still gets to me, amazing!!! Wait, I think they call it sobbing, not crying, right? It is so difficult to try and type through tears. I miss him, I miss him so much it still hurts!!!View Thread
Ahhhh yesss, Rats are people too!!! If a big nasty corporation can be a human, so can my babies, the Rats!!! They are a very clean sort, except for having to clean the cage every week. I got this monstrosity of a cage, well, its actually an aquarium, a breeders tank they call it?! I had two, so I thought a nice big cage would give them plenty of space, yep, they had plenty space I tell you! Now I'm down to my last one, also. If I am gonna get fit, again, I will have to concentrate on that, and only that. No distractions this time around!
Did I say I'm glad I quit smoking??? Well, I AM!!!!!!!!
Now, I have to move on to the next one, if there is one?
I had thought about that last time. And I can remember how hard it was to do somethings myself? So, yes, I agree with you! However, everyone I know, works. I could have a couple of them help, at least check in on me? My brother might be able to help on the weekends, depending of course on the weather? Plus, I stocked up on some books I have yet to read, crossword puzzles, and other fun festivities planned. I also brought in a small board? to go along with my cane, this I hope, will help keep my balance from tripping me up?
Yes I do, I think this community helps me cope with life in general, and my ongoing search for the right person to share life with?! You guys have helped me so much, you even got me through losing Joe. You yourself Dr. Leslie, have helped me tremendously! It was you who steered me to the key I needed to free myself from the anger and resentment I had for losing my mother, and hating the one who killed her. Remember that? I will, forever! I can't thank you enough for helping me!!! I can't thank this community enough, either!!!
I am here today, I don't know about tomorrow, but I thank you for this day, and that goes for this entire community!!!!! Thank you, guys, thanks for being here when I needed you so bad!!!!
Thanks to all of you, for allowing me to join the best community anywhere!!!
Hmm, you have some pretty cruel people around you? Sometimes, even well intended people say some unintended things without knowing how it hurts you? Have you ever sat them down, one on one, and told them of how these remarks they give hurt you? If you don't, they may never know how much they have hurt you, and just keep right on doing it?! Now that, is a no win situation, right? Dammed right!!! So, what do you need to do to make them aware of your feelings? You know, how can you get these people to empathize with you?
Hey, I can see why some may say things to you? When you say things like "But I don't like who I am", that is signaling them to try and help you to feel more like liking yourself? This may be somewhat awkward for some, and they may end up hurting your feelings more than you do yourself? You will never like yourself if you are always negative about yourself. Now, come on, lets get this thing together, okay? How long has it been since you last saw a counselor? Does he seem to help you? Is he a positive, or a negative to you? What you need to do is, surround yourself with positive people. That way, you can observe their how and why they stay positive, even when they feel down? You see? Something may rub off on you, eh? LOL!!! Watch them, do what they do to be healthy and happy! And sooner, rather than later, you too will be a happier person?!
Laugh, and the world laughs with you!
I wish I could stay on, try to help you find your inner positive person, you know? But, duty calls. I need to be in the bank the moment they open them doors! I accedently used my debit card instead of paying cash at the gas station, now I will be over if I don't get there in time? So, I must cut this short? I do hope you come back later, add some more background, maybe someone will know something to help you with???