Thanks for making me clean my screen twice this morning! S.L.M.A.O.!!!
Wait, what??? Card, what card? I was never issued a card? QUICK, where do I go to get one? Hurry, before the internet Guvmint people find out!!!! I DON'T WANT TO GO TO JAIL, AAAAAAaaaarrrrrrrrgggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh, why me ole Lord, why me all the time???? Ha, there, I hope you have to clean your screen twice this AM.!!!
I'm just kidding there, Guvmint people, just kidding!!! Here's a little tip fer ya, Ahcmed is hiding under his momma's bed. Ha Ha, made ya look! You guvmint peoples are so easy to fool! What? You guys are looking into my background??? Oh Oh, I hope they don't find out about the time I tore the wings off a that fly? I just had to see if he could fly without wings, ya know? Oh, and if they find out I was makin bathtub gin during the prohibition time, why, they just might throw me in the hoosegow? Wait, what? Oh, that's right, that was just a movie I watched, I'm not old enough for that'en. By golly!
Well, have you cleaned your screen twice yet? LOL!!!
And yes, I mean it, you ARE a credit to your race, AND gender!!!
Its not just knowing how you look, its the feeling I get just knowing you some what?! Its in the help you give to others, people you don't even know? You give so freely of yourself, and yet you can't seem to accept yourself as a good person? A good person that deserves all the love and compassion she gives to others, you see? Your spouse surly sees it in you, and loves you just as much as you deserve to be loved, too!
I think that, if you could just get that inner eye open, you too would see how much you deserve the same as you give? Its almost like you are afraid of this love and compassion you have for others? Are you afraid to accept self compassion, self love? You really do seem to love giving it away, so why can't you accept it from others? You have to accept it from yourself first, I think? Then you can start to accept it from the rest of us who love you.
Yes, I have read your book, and it explains a lot about you and the way you see yourself! I won't go into it any further, I think what I have already said should suffice? You don't always have to be the heroine, ya know? Sometimes, we just have to trust those that love us to slay our inner demons? To free us from ourselves? To kill our self doubt? Sometimes, we just don't have to be the hero? There are times we need to let our spouse be our hero? You know what I mean.
Let the love and compassion of your spouse, and others that love you, free you from the clutches of that creature inside you. Stop struggling against the current? Oh oh, I've run out of the usual sayings?
You know what I mean, tho, don't you? I know you do, you just needed to hear it.
Wow, are you for real? How do you let this man, this man who is supposed to love you, do this to you? I can't figure this out? Why would he take you from your job, only to have you stay where you are miserable? Who does that?
I have to wonder how old you two are? My guess is, you both are pretty young, and just starting out in life? In that case, I still have to wonder why he would want to remove you from a job, any job? And now, does he want you to find employment where the cousin lives? Or, does he want you to work at all?
The way I see it, your boyfriend don't deserve to have a girlfriend if he has to do something like this, to her? I don't know if you were happy at your job, or he just wanted to move you away from a bad job? Your answer to this is going to be quite telling?!
If you don't like the female cousin being snobbish to you, ask her in your most pleasant voice to just shut the hell up! Be sure to inject a "please" before the shut the hell up, okay? LOL!!! Then, tell your boyfriend that you want to move away from this situation, and you will do it with, or without his help?! There is help available to you, if you just ask for it! A woman's shelter, perhaps? The county relief office? Department of Human Resources? A church, or whatever religious belief you may have, can also help in certain cases? I think your best bet, for immediate help, would be the County relief office? They can help you with rent, but you will need a place to live, first? So, go to the D.H.S. office, get help with food stamps for sure. And the Woman's shelter for a place to stay for now, till you get on your own two feet, again. Sorry, I got that mixed up, woman's shelter first, then either of the remaining two, or a church, or what have you?
You can remedy this situation yourself, if your boyfriend doesn't want to help YOU, his own girlfriend?
I wish you tons of luck!!! Please feel free to come back for more help, support, or just to vent, that is what we are here for! Now, go do whatever it is you need to do for YOUR own sake, no one else's!!!
Whoa!!!! Roh, you know me so well!!!! Short answer, you can achieve whatever the mind can conceive. Since you already know what you want, and need to do, you are way ahead of your "creature inside you"!
You have my unending support, anytime you need me!!!!!!!!
Wow, sis, that is so intuitive of you! You see inside yourself in order to make others happy, and that is good. But, you also have to make yourself happy. You are such a wonderful person, I can't for the life of me figure you out? You keep putting yourself down, as if for some reason you don't deserve happiness? You do! You do indeed deserve happiness just like you want to make your spouse happy! You need to be happy in order to make others happy, you do know this, don't you?
Roh, my sista from anotha mista, you are one of the best people I have ever met!!! Please try to see yourself as you see others, okay? You need, and deserve to be happy too!!! If you are happy, your spouse will be, too! Don't knock yourself down, you are a magnificent author! As your friend, and as your brotha from anotha motha, I can tell you this; you are more worthy of love and happiness than I am, or ever will be! You deserve everything you give of yourself to others, and sometimes even more so!!! I can't see how you can put yourself down like you do? You are so lucky, you have excellent skills as a writer, and as a spouse! Your spouse is very lucky to have you in her life!!! You are lucky to have been blessed with the love and compassion you have for others, so, use some of it for yourself. You deserve happiness just like everyone else, and you have a loving spouse to go home to!
I hope you can see inside yourself and find what I see? I'm sure your spouse sees it, also? Your love of her deserves her love back! Stop kicking yourself down, you deserve her love as much as you give her love! And that's a fact, Jack!!!
I'm sorry about this, you don't deserve to be treated this way, no one does!!! YES, YOU DO DESERVE BETTER!!! If you ask me, your boyfriend was/is still a child in his brain? This is stuff we did back in the 7th grade, not as an adult!!! Its like he was trying to pit the to of you together for his own pleasure, while denying it was happening? Who does this stuff? A young teenager, perhaps?
Did he really say you had no proof as his defense? No, you can't stay in a relationship like that, it will only end in misery! (like it already has?) Yep, he will never say it was all his fault, that takes the courage of a real man to admit he was wrong! I'm so sorry you have wasted so much of your precious life on this basement dwelling "Mommy's Boy"!
You will still feel this loss. Grieve it as you would the loss of a loved one. Then move on with your new single self, go out with friends/family, your support system if you will? Go have some fun, then maybe the right man for you will show up? You deserve happiness, you deserve better!!!