Yes D, I remember telling you everything lol. I know it was my fault for not keeping in touch. I have a bad habit of doing that when things get rough for me.
I went to see my Podiatrist yesterday because I have Neuropathy in my feet from the Diabetes only to find even more bad news. He said the lightening bolts stabbing my feet aren't from Diabetes but from my neck. I saw my Primary Dr. today and he explained in detail that things are not looking good for me on that front. Guess I'm gonna have to put on my big girl panties and buck up ey? He's arranging for me to have a traction thingy here at home to hopefully have some of the pressure taken off at least until I see the Neurosurgeon next month. Ugh!! My neck went bad so quick! As for the other problems, the only one that I can make a difference with is the Diabetes and I'm here to tell ya, that's an uphill battle all the way! Good thing I learned how to stay positive back in my college days, mostly because of the Lupus. Now days I tend to break out in hives when things are getting tough right now I have one big ole huge one on my left knee,,, only one, crazy huh?
I have a limited time on the computer these days because of the neck thing, so I will try to write you soon. You have my email addy still right? Oh and I have a new puter since we last talked!! It's a lot faster but my internet connection bites!!!
Yes I am guilty of almost all of those things these days. Summer is almost over and that is the hardest season for me as everyone loves the beach and the Sun. I don't participate any longer as I have Discoid Lupus and the Sun doesn't like me much. I am losing my hair rapidly this year so it's not something I'm comfortable with yet. I have Narcolepsy which makes it hard for me to get out and drive which I'm having a hard time with also. I have type 2 Diabetes and a few months ago my sugar dropped to 20 so suddenly that no one was sure what was wrong with me. The Paramedics were able to bring me out of it long enough for me to tell them I was Diabetic so I really dodged a bullet there. That was my first time experiencing LOW sugar in the 10 years since I've been diagnosed. I wear a Life Alert pendant (now on my wrist) because it was tucked in my shirt and nobody saw it. I have Cirrhosis of the Liver which is complicated by Esophageal Varices and have to go through banding every 6 months or so, and Hepatic Ensephalopathy (not sure of the spelling). Which among other things, affects my memory and personality. The reason I had the problem with my sugar going so low is because my neck started hurting really bad to a point I couldn't sit upright and walking was excruciating so they gave me pain pills (on top of the other 18 meds that I take), I couldn't get up to eat or anything for a week. That day I went to see the physical therapist and was told they couldn't help me as my MRI showed two bulging discs at C4 and C6 I think it was. One is putting pressure on my spine and the other on nerves. I can't get in to see the Neurologist until the end of Oct. This started the end of April. You truly find out who your friends are when these things happen. And the man I was about to marry left me also. I guess I can't blame them now can I? I consider myself a strong woman most of the time but as I get older, I lose some of that strength day by day, and yes D, the spoons are fewer and fewer no matter how much I guard them. Thank you for your link, it was a very good read!View Thread
Thanks Dr. Becker-Phelps, Your blog nailed me in the very first paragraph. I'm pretty much tore up from the floor up both mentally and physically. This site is having problems letting me post so I will try again another timeView Thread
I was raised to grow up, get married, and have kids I got married when I was 16 to a boy I met when I was 12 he was 20 and in the Navy. He was getting ready to ship out to Viet Nam. My parent loved him like a son. He didn't smoke, drink, or cuss in front of me. So they figured by the time he returned from his tour, I'd be out of high school and ready for married life. What they didn't count on was PTSD.... He came back a very angry man, smoking drinking and cussing like the Sailor he was. Five years later, I had my first child and a year later, my second. Our marriage lasted 14 years before I'd had enough beatings and figured there had to be more to life than that.
I married again to a kind gentle man who was 12 years older than I was. We were together 5 years and married only 1. Never had a fight the whole time however, he couldn't understand the fact that I wasn't a jealous wife and started checking the mileage on my car and things like that so we agreed that maybe marriage wasn't meant for the two of us.
I met a man I consider my soul mate. We hit it off really quick and had so very much in common! However, it didn't take long to figure out we made much better friends than lovers as he was a drinker, and I wasn't. He was the life of the party and I wasn't. He wasn't even close to settling down and I wasn't ready to sleep with everyone he was sleeping with so we agreed Best Friends Forever! We could talk about anything and everything and I always knew when he was dating someone because he wouldn't come around much. Then one day he came over and was so happy cause he thought he'd met 'the one'. I was so happy for him and never really saw him so happy! He still came to see me often and she knew about me and everything was as it should be and then it happened.... he came over a broken man. He sat on the floor and put his head in my lap and cried like a baby telling me he had caught her in bed with his best friend!!! Not only that but he lost his job and consequently his place to live all within that week... He stayed at my place for about a week with me trying to pull him back up like I always did when he was heart broke, but this time was different, I just couldn't pull him back up,,, no matter what I tried he just stayed down in that gutter, digging his hole deeper and deeper until one day he said he was gonna go get his things and bring them down to store with me which he did and I thought maybe he was making a little progress by doing so... He planned on going back the next day and we stayed up all night talking and my heart hurt knowing how much his heart was broken. He said goodbye and I knew something was up by the way he said it and he hugged me so tight I thought I would have trouble catching my breath. That was the last time I saw him. He went to her house and planned a murder-suicide but she locked her door and so he shot himself on her front porch.... It's now 12 years later, and I still feel like it was yesterday. I miss him so much!!! I met someone about 3 years ago online he brought me out of my shell but I can't seem to trust again. I met a friend here also but we lost contact (my fault), and I can't seem to reconnect with him either. I saw him online the other day and said hi but he didn't respond. I miss him too. Thanks for reading, wish I felt better but I don't know how.View Thread
I think the question is a very good one but remember you also need to answer your own question giving as much detail in the answer as you can. If you feel it is too vague or maybe you won't get the detailed answer you're looking for then ask another question or two to let your S/O where you're going with your question(s).View Thread
Hang in there D! You can always call me if you're feeling the slightest bit down! Send me a text or something? I will be here night or day.... I have been in your position before and have seen others through their best and worst times. Just remember, you won't always feel this bad. Times will get better! Put yourself in your happy place and stay there until you feel stronger. Visualize your walk through those Redwoods! And most of all, remember you are loved dearly by many!
Sounds to me after all you said and all you've done, that he has either lost his libido or maybe really IS having an affair? I would insist he see a Dr. and if he refused I would consider cutting your losses. There are clinics he could go to that are low cost. You know, I wouldn't be too angry with him. We all get our heart broken at one time or another but that doesn't mean you have to feel it's all your fault. People change just as time changes, move on with your head up high and know that you shouldn't have to work this hard to be happy. There is someone out there that will treat you like you are the light of his life and/or the queen of his castle. He obviously isn't 'the one'. Don't be hurt, he's not the only guy out there and moving on is a pain but you will feel better for it. Find someone who will need you because he loves you not love you because he needs you. Good luck and let us know how you are doing?View Thread
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