I am trying to file for federal disability retirement because of severe harrassment on the job at the post office which put me in a psychiatric hospital. I am feeling extremely guilty for not bringing in a pay check for the last year. I was not given Workman's Comp. My husband has been out of work for 4 years and the past year and a half has been getting contract work, if really lucky 2 or 3 days a month. He worked 9 days between May and Sept. this year. So to say the least it is really taking a toll on us. We still have a 26 year old daughter and my mother of 84 years living with us. The stress is so great it can not be measured. I am angry because I feel that my husband should be the provider for us as he had always been and I think of just leaving. But the I feel guilty for feeling that way. It has really affected how I feel about him after 35 years of marriage. I just want someone to take care of me. I feel like a little kid again having to ask if I can buy something or ask for money. It really hurts. i know he too is depressed, I am on 5 medications trying to help me cope with mine but will soon loose my insurance and will have to get off my meds. I scared of the future and just want to hide. I have lost hope of ever being happy again. I have given up it takes every ounce of energy I can muster to work on the papers to get my disability and I pray I can do it. Most days I just sleep most of the day. It is just to hard to deal with life.View Thread