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I've never given much thought to marriage and children, but sometimes I wonder what it might be like to have a daughter, a little girl, and now I have to wonder if one of those children killed in CT were my little girl, and with everything else I've endured so far in life, that might have to be the end of me. That might keep me from recovery, like a point of no return.View Thread

After I'd tried to kill myself months before then, he was hundreds of miles away during my long recovery in the hospital. I did hear from him, but through his lawyer, about an unrelated matter, where he no longer wanted to pay money that he owed for my education. Maybe you won't be surprised, but when I got out of the hospital, I was looking forward to seeing him the way I usually did that time of year.
I was unemployed at the time, but he had me pay my own way (I can't remember how I did it) to travel those hundreds of miles to see him, where my stepmother was waiting to tell me she didn't think I'd really been ready to kill myself. After leaving that visit I did try once more, several months later, after which I told him we were parting ways.
I once had a dream that my stepmother resembled porn star Shy Luv, about as far from her as you can get, but funnily enough she wasn't even acting sexually in the dream, she was just a much nicer person. She and my father spent years teaching me, and I wasn't the only one, why I shouldn't expect anyone to like me, but I can tell you for sure that what they've been doing all this time is sitting at their dinner table, without friends, talking about how everyone else is worse than they are.
Even with people they did call friends, they rarely had anything to say behind their backs that wasn't completely condescending, especially that none of them had made anything of their lives. I liked those friends of theirs the most, and having drinks with their cousin Gloria from time to time, whom they couldn't say had made nothing of her life because she was Gloria Estefan, and I wish I could've seen more of her, but I had to get and stay the hell out of my father and stepmother's sphere of influence.
This is starting to feel like a very difficult time of year for me, but anyone with any kind of sense does get himself out of an abusive situation like that as long ago as I did, so it's at least one point I can give myself, and maybe you can give yourself.View Thread

I have a mental-emotional disorder myself. One Harvard doctor, who was really full of bull, said years ago that it was Asperger's, like the shooter here had. The disorder, which I was forced to figure out myself a year or so later because of so many of these ignorant diagnoses, was bipolar II. I have nothing to hide if someone asked me, but I don't advertise it because then people might assume, especially at a time like this, that if they don't walk on eggshells around me I might shoot up the place.
Guns generally scare the hell out of me, though I can tell you I have stood with my legs slightly apart staring down the range at the laser point coming from the tiny grip-mounted LAM (I don't like LAMs) of a coworker's Beretta 92F automatic, for a day of responsible education.
In conclusion, I don't know what could've been done for that kid, but for every person with a mental illness who goes and does something senseless like this, there are millions who are non-violent and high-functioning, with healthy respect for the way firearms can snuff out life in an instant, contributing to society.View Thread



I've changed my life a lot since then, though I still have similar issues with sadness and anger, so I've come back for a short visit. I've probably contributed, hopefully helpfully, to other people's threads now more than my own.
You're right in that I'm not ready to settle down, and my change in lifestyle has been as enjoyable as I thought it would be. I'm still curious/nostalgic about opportunities I may've lost though, which is what had brought me back here. Sex itself is wonderful, but sex with someone I could care about and have chemistry with also still sounds interesting, and I feel much more confident now.
I noticed you seem a friend of Kloudnine, which I won't say I'm surprised about, but while she was very supportive, which I've remembered her for over these months, your remark had to've been either humorous or a jab. If you don't have respect for me in what I write, I want you to stay off my threads.View Thread




Unlike yourself, I don't think I could recreate my bootlegger's brake on command, as it was all instinct at that moment, leaving me shaking with adrenaline in the backstreet where I'd gone to take cover, and laughing uncontrollably at how I should've been dead rather than left someone else's out-of-control situation behind me without a single human injury or bit of property damage.
Back to this thread, that experience with the doctor sounds ultimately like a positive one to me. Unlike what KLopez has unfortunately gone through, you were able to notice the signs of the type of person she was talking about, and save yourself some grief by keeping your distance.
On converting to lesbianism, you're not the first woman I've heard consider that lately. Sharon Stone's one of my favorite women, and she talked about considering that because of how she viewed most men as wimpy compared to those not too long ago.
Back to you, I'm glad you specified "honey blonde," though I also like "dishwater blonde" for that color hair, so I don't get you confused with any "platinum" or "bottle" blondes I've met.
You be happy too.View Thread
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