am not really sure where to start but um iv recently hit a point in my life where i kind of feel like i need to look at whats really wrong instead of just ignoring my problems. im almost 22 and i was told by a close frien who is studying psychology in college that i should look into schizophrenia and it might be an answer to my problems, i struggle through relationships and i am happy with the girl i am with now, we are engaged, but i am having a big issue and its bringing me down, um for abotu 2 years iv gone through spells of paranoia where i think that people are out to harm me, ill be in a crowded place such as a concert and ill notice people who keep looking at me and i get intense anxiety and just leave or withdraw from whatever is going on, for the past few years my hygiene has tanked and i dont feel the motivation to do anything really i have to force myself to eat, i rarely ever leave my apartment for fear that someone is following me trying to get me, i hear my fiancee whispering with her friends and i think they are plotting against me and my mind starts picking up on things, over the last few weeks one paranoid thought has grown into a huge almost conspiracy idea, and im losing sleep because i feel that if i fall asleep that someones gonna get me, i have to stay up till i literally cnt keep my eyes open, i just dont know what to do with myself anymore, and even over the last year and a half or so iv kinda felt at times like im just not connected to my surroundings like im not really there, i have cut all connections with my friends and trying to make new ones suck because i cant trust anyone, my fiancee is getting upset with me because i wont hang out with anybody or go to parties and im to afraid to tell her what exactly is going on in my fu**ed up head, i mean when the paranoia and everything isnt bothering me or when iv kinda relaxed my suspicions im a normal and happy guy, but lately things have just been getting worse to the point where i cant even leave my apartment without somebody with me, i am just hoping somebody out there can give me some answers. i appreciate it a lot.View Thread
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