I, as a 15 year old, am finding myself in a similar place that you were 10 years ago. I have isolated myself from almost all social contact, because I feel very anxious and irritated when I talk to people, even my family. I feel like I have no drive to do anything productive or active. I've been feeling depressed for months as well. I hear low humming sounds and buzzing sound, but have never found a source. Also, I hear a voice scolding me for failures and wasting time as I tend to do because of my depression. It tells me that it has big plans for my life and it rebukes me for not living up to them. It also compels me to hurt myself. I have stabbed myself with a pen for something as small as hitting a wrong note while playing the piano. I don't tell anybody what I'm feeling because I can't help but think there may be a possibility that I'm just making up the voice. I don't know exactly what would be diagnosed with these symptoms, if anything, but it seems possible that I am just making them up as an excuse to myself for isolating myself, lying in bed, or watching TV all day. I feel that I may be compelled to think of myself as crazy to justify my failures in life.View Thread
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