New here... don't really know what to say as introduction and keep anonymity.
I'm 42, sh'ed a very short while as a teen - like a few months - until my mother took away my tool. She did not know then and does not know now. I started again several years ago when job loss and personal stresses became too much. After three years I was able to stop and did not sh for over a year. Work has been emotionally stressful this week and I went back to the only coping skills I have found that work. Part of me knows how awful it is and wants to stop. I feel so guilty for it and I haven't told husband or sister that I did again. No one else knows anything. Part of me thinks that it makes me feel better so what is the problem? kind of lost...but glad to see I am not alone.View Thread
I have been cutting myself since around December last year. I started it up because it help me deal with what I'm going though and the pain helped with that.
Here is a little background on why I started. My ex boyfriend who I was with for 6 years and only had been broken up with for 9 months, took his life on Thanksgiving day. The Sunday before he did this he called me and I didn't answer. I have been living with regrets, blame, guilt and etc since his death. I started cutting because it took some of the pain I was feeling away.
I want to stop and I want to go back to counseling and I know if I do I have to be completely honest about this. But I'm scared for a couple of reason one what will happen when I tell her, like will she turn me in and that, I don't want to end my life, I want to live and I realize that now; the other reason is how my family and friends will look at me and how the will treat me and what they will think of me.
I wouldn't say I'm proud of what I have done. I guess I'm just wondering what happens when you come out to a counselor?? If anyone would be able to tell me or help me out that would be great. Thanks!
Also I'm not underage or anything, I'm 30 years old.View Thread
Hello.[br>Whenever I'm very upset about something or highly pressured, I hit my head as hard as I could because I just want to stop thinking. I don't like my thoughts coming in so automatically, like a reflex, I hit my head with my palm or fist or sometimes on the wall or on anything hard. I'm thinking that if my head hurts so much, I won't be able to think of anything. But I don't feel any pain no matter how hard I hit it. Then afterwards, I cry and cry. Not because of the pain but because of my thoughts, memories etc.. I can cry for an hour! Nonstop.[br>[br>What's going on with me? Do I need a professional for this or there are ways to resolve it by myself? [br>[br>Thanks in advance! God BlessView Thread
I'm a 16 living in Iowa and I was wondering if my doctor is allowed to tell my parents about my self harm? I have an appt tomorrow that will probably involve a blood draw and I have numerous scars on my arms that are very obviously self inflicted and impossible to hide.
I am getting clean but my parents don't know and for reasons I don't want to get into I really don't want to tell them right now. I have told people so I have a good support system. My best friend (my age) knows as does a family friend (30) who is like a sister to me.
I've done a lot of research but everything I've found is pretty vague concerning minors so if someone could help me out that would be great!
I have recently been having a hard time with life in general, and have been having an especially hard time...
Posted by An_261648
I have recently been having a hard time with life in general, and have been having an especially hard time dealing with stress. I have been wondering whether what I have been doing to my self is self harm.
This part is very descriptive and could be a trigger.
I will often bang my head against walls, hit myself in my stomach, and bite at my arms when I am either in a stressful situation or I am angry at myself or somebody else. Lately I have been very angry at myself, and cannot stop thinking that I am an awful person. This anger often happens when I have been thinking about death. I do not actually plan to kill myself or another person, I just can't stop thinking about what would happen if I did. When this does happen, I get extremely angry at myself, because I think that I am a freak or that I am "messed-up". I'm sorry if I'm ranting a little. I really just want to know whether what I have been doing would be considered self harm.View Thread
I think the only thing that keeps me going is that my family already went through enough crap I don't think they could handle one more tragedy. I'm sure they worry about me, they don't know how to help me, I don't know how to help myself. I'm on meds and I tried a few therapists but none seem to fit and the meds only dulls the edge just a tiny bit. I'm tired of trying to feel better but i just don't have the energy anymore. Worst part is that there is no one specific reason why. Thoughts of sh'ing comes up at least once a day sometimes more now but I fight it and worse thoughts have been coming up but I fight those too. I'm tired of fighting...View Thread
I have been thinking of this group and the positives that had come with being a part of this little family. We have been broken and I miss many of you. It's quiet here now, and I haven't been on here in some time.If you are reading this - know that I am sending positive and loving vibes out this group.
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I recently fell back into old habits, and it took a couple of sessions before I finally came clean to my therapist. She was unfazed by my hiding. She must know me! *wink* It got me thinking how much this group had helped me for over a year! Specifically in finally learning to communicate these feelings through safer ways of expression. I hope everyone is well and that this new year brings you strength, joy and good health! <3View Thread
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