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I have had to harden myself for the past 1 1/2 weeks in order to not deal with several very painful issues...

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To Everyone

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We must be the change we wish to see in the world. -- Mahatma Ghandi

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more capybaras!

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A LOW DOWN NASTY DAY.....

CAUTION MAY TRIGGER---------------------CAUTION MAY TRIGGER Has anyone dealt with the following? It...

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sullen girl

you are in my thoughts i know your big day is soon

~ Live in faith and expect the best. Through every trial, God will make sure you come out better than before.~

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sullen girl

you are in my thoughts i know your big day is soon

~ Live in faith and expect the best. Through every trial, God will make sure you come out better than before.~

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hi lostkate

how are you> it has been a while

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caprice

miss you and where you are things are going well for you. o hope you have been able to have a lot of good...

~ Live in faith and expect the best. Through every trial, God will make sure you come out better than before.~

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SELF HATE TRIG

HOW DO YOU TALK TO YOURSELF? DO YOU ALWAYS CALL YOURSELF NAMES AND SUCH? ...

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awfully quiet here....

I miss ya'll here. Seems like it's been just a couple of us here. Where is my extended family?? I...

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HIGH HIGH HIGH (MAY TRIGGER?)

YES THAT IS WHAT HAPPENED TODAY! I'M FALLING APART BECAUSE THERE IS SO MUCH COMING AT ME THAT I DON'T...

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OTW

hope you are hangin in there. I GET CONCERNED WHEN A COUPLE DAYS GO BY AND YOU'VE HAD A LARGE...

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CJ_SMITH SUGGESTION

HI. dogdancing made a good suggestion on your post. If you made a new post you may get more feedback. as...

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CJ_SMITH SUGGESTION

HI. dogdancing made a good suggestion on your post. If you made a new post you may get more feedback. as...

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Open to Suggestions...

I'm open to idea's, suggestions, feedback in regards to finding new meaning in life as a physically...

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Life is the school, Love is the lesson.

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baby news 4/2

Amiiyah Jaylynn 7llbs10 oz 22 inches born 12 48 am

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Munchhausen discussion - may be triggery?

Welcome to the board Anna, glad you found us. You said; "Munchhausen, ......., can't be treated the...

I'm not really a psychopath, I just play one on the internet.

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April Gratitude List

I am thankful for the HealthCare team that I now have. I am thankful they listen to me, believe in...

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Bonnie

Life is the school, Love is the lesson.

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Dog dancing

I've been thinking of you and wondering how you're doing? U ok?

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what would you do?

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OK YOU LIKE BUNNIES WHAT IS YOUR BUNNIE NAME? HA...

~ Live in faith and expect the best. Through every trial, God will make sure you come out better than before.~

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Happy Birthday Bonnie

a one and a two and a.....HAPPY BIRTHDAY BONNIE! we have yet another birthday celebration IN this...

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temporary pic

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"Losing" years

I wasn't sure what forum to post this under, but I know that at least a couple of our members here...

We must be the change we wish to see in the world. -- Mahatma Ghandi

Posted by lovely_lemon_tree

I wasn't sure what forum to post this under, but I know that at least a couple of our members here dissociate, it may be an appropriate place to put it.

More and more, I've been feeling that I have "awakened" (for lack of a better term) after more than a decade of being "sick." I've bee feeling it, I've been thinking it, I've been, for crying out loud, dreaming it. It's as if the last approximately ten years haven't emotionally happened for me. I have put so much of my life on hold for all these years, being phenomenally, psychotically depressed. Things that happened to me ten years ago are now rushing towards me in my head, front and center.

Ten years ago, I left law school because I was too "sick" to continue. Hospitalizations, cutting, stress-induced cracks in my psyche made it impossible. It was a decision that cut to the very core of me -- it made me think so much less of myself that I couldn't finish -- made me automatically "not good enough" for anyone, including and especially myself. I've been dreaming about it frequently (having such wonderful, soaring fantasies that I've finished, I've done it, I've graduated, and then such crashing agony when reality and consciousness sets in, when I realize that it was all just a dream and I'm not that person).

More painfully, I've been dreaming about my ex-fiance, Eric. I know that he is married now, probably with children by now. I keep thinking of him, mourning his loss, dreaming of him so frequently that it's probably at least four nights out of every week. I split with him because I felt it wasn't right -- that he couldn't understand the person I was becoming -- the illness I was becoming -- that he didn't want to understand the illness I was becoming -- that when I told him I was cutting his response was nothing -- nothing -- and I couldn't allow him to continue to do that. I dream of marrying him, I dream of our wedding. Then I dream of being led to the wedding crying hysterically, knowing it wasn't right. I know it wasn't right between us, him and I... but couldn't we have been a couple a little longer? Could we have not been two human beings, loving each other, just being, with no ultimate goal between us? But the wound from the break-up is as fresh and new as it should have been nearly ten years ago.

I believe that dreams state so much about what a person is really thinking -- that they are not particularly Freudian but that they are significant and hold keys to a person's emotions, hopes, fantasies, goals, and dreams for themselves. The fact that I'm dreaming about these things so much now when I hadn't over the last ten years makes me fee like I've just lost ten years to illness... that ten years of my life is just ... gone. That here I am, age 22, fresh out of college again and just beginning her life. Did I dissociate an entire decade of my life? I'm feeling things now that I've not felt in the past and here they are ... now... ten years later. It's like the premise of a novel. But it's really more like a nightmare... over and over and over again. And I'll dream it again when I go to bed at night.. just like I dreamt it last night and the night before.View Thread

We must be the change we wish to see in the world. -- Mahatma Ghandi

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i love you sb

you are so sweet happy Easter

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i love you sb

you are so sweet happy Easter

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Have to put my dog down this week

We are out of town and when a new pet sitter we found entered our house today, our dog bit him 4 times.

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Pdoc said.....

My appt. this week with pdoc: ME: after meeting me only two times how did you arrive at that i'm bpd?...

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My appt. this week with pdoc: ME: after meeting me only two times how did you arrive at that i'm bpd? PDOC: I reviewed your chart. ME: And so what made you decide that i'm bpd. PDOC: well, your suicide attempts were all over simple things. ME: well it takes a total of 5 criterion to match this dx. PDOC: yes and your paranoia fits the criteria too. (she did go on about what criteria I made)

I forget all that she said cuz i was so shocked i barely go thru sitting there. I wonder why no one else ever found this. I know when i was in the hospital the second to last time the doc there whom I had talked to a couple times put personality disorder nos. so i think the new doc keyed in on that! Do you ever wonder how there little brains work??

I do!! I guess a lot of things make sense now. THe paranoia all these years since i was in my teens or even younger. I'm very interested in figuring out how this all happened to make me what I am?? since it's a part of me i'm trying to piece the pieces together!

Now she had my other disorder as primary. and they got rid of it except in her notes. she told me i could go to another facility for pdoc care if I'd like to... but i've decided for a variety of reasons that i don't want to start all over again. she apologized for putting the dx there w/o talking to me first!!! that did make me really mad and she was def. in the wrong but i'm willing to forgive her. i try not to hold vendetta's.

she didn't even mention the sh in the dx. i think these people who work in mental health are amazing creatures because they can remember so much stuff! WOW! Having the bpd dx. means I can get well! even tho i have the other which i wonder if i really do???

i can't understand tho why after 18 yrs. in the mental health therapy it hasn't ever come across to anyone before?? Quiet weird! I think my first t coached me to say things that fit when i didn't even know what was up and what was down....very messed up beyond recognition when I first came there. some of my biggest pitfalls i have never grappled with. this is where the real work begins. so much to work on Lordie!View Thread

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On a Positive Note

I'm so happy for all of the women here and an occassional male posting. I learn so much from ya'll....

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