Not doing good. The urge is back for some odd reasons. Had a rough day. If I do it then questions be asked by my T or don't do it and i feel more like going to explode. I should be feeling good since I've been doing all I've asked but its not there. Won't see T until Friday since its been rescheduled. Can't seem to get the thought out of my mind. help.View Thread
You've been a great friend and taught me a lot. I've seen you pulled through some tough times and also helped me through some tough times too.
I never really put a deadline on something like this. Everyone is different and the healing takes a different paths for each of us. To be honest with you, the last time I "actually" cut was last year in October. The "thought" of cutting was about a month ago.
We all are going to have some ups and downs but we just need to know when to reach out for help or seek help when damage is done.
I hope my message will you help u know you are not alone feeling this way.
I know its been a long time since I've posted here. I thought I drop in to let ya know how I am doing. Some of you already know and some of you don't. I've had a rough year and I think I am finally starting to see the light at the end of the tunnel or at least.
I almost succumbed to my temptation to cut but I knew I had to go to the hospital for my own protection. I was hit with some bad news related to my eyes and the knives were talking (not voices) but it was the craving to numb the painful news. Anything related to my vision is my trigger. I finally settled down and was able to make better and rational choices so the doc and release me. I did get my meds adjusted.
Its been a long time since I've cut. Its been a year until Oct. I'm proud of it. I think when my T and I start digging into my other issues, I know the urge will be there and may be stronger. I am glad I didn't give in.
I've moved to a better place that is not as stressful as the other place I stayed at. I may have a job and may have another for a steady paycheck. Hopefully things will start to fall into place for me. I'm frustrated at a lot of stuff. I know it will get better.
well, it was weird when i woke up this morning, i was dreaming of cutting then i woke up. Housemates were noisy. People who flop their feet on the floor loudly. So, i put my finger up to my mouth to tell them to be quiet.
All I can remember from the dream was my right arm bleeding and was similar lines of cuts as my left one. My left arm is just about gone. I think its the anxiety cuz its warming up and i like to wear short sleeves around as i do get hot easily since i've put on weight (makes my docs happy).
Its like i was anticipating it happening but i never did go for it.