The limit of people being in there can be accommodated.Something like this should be easy but it's always a challenge cause so many things run through the mind.Thinking how defenseless a person is in the situation,so many things come roaring back.Just a lot of creepy factors with 40 minutes to an hour.
The mind is a unpredictable thing there's no switch one can hit.It took one hell of a combination to develop the mind set that we have.Will try to stay safe and busy this weekend and Monday call the Dr office.That's the idea as for now you never know what might get thrown into the mixed of things.
You did need to ask to use any words here.If it helps you to express yourself then feel free.Use whatever is comfortable Sometimes I have to be careful where I step in my own mind.I use too warn my T when the wasn't going good.Watch where you step,which let's him know that anything can trigger something.
Still safe so far but the urge is yet there.Just having to do something triggered all kinds of things.The mind is a land mine every where you step.It's kind of silly but a task to complete even if it has to be done.
Have to have a procedure done and it's not registering to well.The idea of being unclothed,asleep and with strangers is setting off alarms.That's too close for comfort in the mind of someone who has been abused.
The mind is in full flight mode just screaming to run.It's very different from any other time when dealing with triggers.
I don't doubt that this site is great and glad that you feel it suits you and your comfort.It's nice to be wanting/needed by people that share the same issues.i guess it's me that is no good or evil.You have help me more than enough and I thank you very much.
I much be a gift from the devil,a creature by habit.Nobody lives like this that we know of.Anyways I'll just slide back to the dark and let the world carry on.LOL
I'll mellow out with some weed and drinks.So you don't sweat nothing I said here.This is me,it is what it is.
Again thanks for your kindness and help..............
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First forgive me for spiting out my words here.I don't usually invade this space so I won't after this note.Don't want to poison anyone with my toxic garbage when it's not necessary.
Saturday my brain had a reboot at the complex and so many things came into play.Some I have been wondering about lately and realize why.I was hit with the fact of why things are going the way they are,why it's so easy for people I believe to help me to simply do the opposite of what they say and why no one looks/wonders about me.Now it's clear to me the how and why when it comes to me and others.
A parrot has been on my shoulder for the longest but I tuned it out.Thinking about it what this person said I can't brush it aside.And this (I AM A TRAGEDY) one that no one wants.I'm not looking for pity,a reply or anything,I just needed to say this.What I thought to believe is all a illusion.
I have so many things running a marathon in my head but I'm not going to bore you any longer with any more.Besides my hand is really throbbing so rest of this doesn't matter.I'm just a misfit that doesn't fit anywhere so it seems.