I haven't commented on this because I'm not a mother, but my best friend is (a single mother no less) so I am familiar with sleep deprevation and the need for a break. I think it was around 4 months that my friend broke down & had her mother take her daughter for the weekend.
You need to let hubby help you. Like SB said, let him take some turns on the overnights & let you sleep. (use the weekend if he complains he has to work).
Sleep deprevation does a lot to us. It messes with everything mentally - you need some sleep.
Welcome John - You say you have Bi-polar, are you seeing a therapist? You should speak with them about Cognitive Behavioral Therapy or Dialectical Behavioral Therapy. Both of which teach you positive coping skills. Self Harm (sh) is a negative coping skill. Like kitty said, it's one we often fall back on. Having other coping skills in your arsenal can only help.View Thread
I would just say that there is a diffence between being sad & clinical depression (what you take meds for). We can't diagnose you. You need to see a doctor (preferably a psychiatrist) and let them diagnose you.View Thread
Is this level of anger & physicallity normal for him during an argument? If it is I'd be very careful, those that take their anger out physically don't get better, they get worse. Also, you mentioned another woman - I don't know, but it sounds like you should get away from this guy as quickly as you can.
I know you don't want to hear this. But I've seen abusive relationships & been in one - it doesn't get better. The fact that you turned your emotions on you just means you're on the right board. That's what we all do. My juvenile tendencies led me to my last suicide attempt (I'll show you!)
DDT Hugs - Big Time Hugs! There is nothing you can do about the hospital bills tonight. If it were me I would set up a payment plan & if they won't work with you, just send what you can afford. Go ahead & take the kids to the circus - the hospital can wait one more month for a payment. I'm sorry you are struggling.View Thread
SB - I only go to a couple of meetings a year. I do participate in an on line aa meeting each week. My agoraphobia & the fact that I haven't been able to find a good group around here has limited my going. I still pray, I try to work the steps & try to live a sober life. Mental Illness is a lot like AA - One moment at a time.View Thread
SB - You know I'm a drunk. And you know I am never going to force AA down your throat. But, if you ever want to talk about your drinking - you can with me. Just let me know & I'll give you my email address.View Thread