I came to this community as it was "A SAFE place to talk and get support from others."
I felt safe because it was an online community group and I had formed a bond with many of you women. We opened up to each other and shared our lives, our thoughts, our emotions... we had a good amount of trust developed.
As you all know, I have been extremely suicidal for months and you all are the reason that I am still here. You gave me strength. You supported me and gave me hope. I believed that maybe, just maybe, you all were right and that there may be a place for me in this world.
Sadly, None of this matters... To those of you who were genuine, I do love you and shall miss you. I wish you all well in your journeys ahead. Be strong for each other.View Thread
Members of my Group? The company that I have identified?
If you feel you know me... you would know then that my T, Psych, Stepps leaders, Crisis Team are all aware that I am in this Self Harm Community on WebMd and that I discuss my "stuff" here. Also if you knew me, you would know that I have had much better threats then yours and could care less.
Lastly, if you personally know me, why hide behind a pseudoname An... Coward!
I am so glad to hear that you are not more injured than you are! How horrible.
A sprained neck with splitting headache is being hurt and down the road, 6 months, a year... who knows the after effect's of this damage. So while the man's insurance may cover the current damages to the vehicle, your medical bills, a liability/collision/ injured party fee, this is where his payments would stop...
I don't know for certain but perhaps your family's recommendation to involve a lawyer is because they are thinking of the future and reprocussions this could have on you? Then again not saying your family is this way but... if it were my "family" they are a sue happy, let's take em to the cleaners, clan. (Thankfully I have nothing to do with family.)
I think ultimately it is up to you. Follow your heart and do what you feel is right.
It is hard, yes. Those who are supposed to help, betray... those we finally let our guards down enough to let part way in, betray... This in turn reinforces my belief that I only have myself I can rely on and It is a lonely existence.
Thank you. You are correct... yet we keep getting told that no one knows the future, how do we know if we don't reach out, yadda, yadda, yadda...
This gal sent me a message asking me to forgive her and could we still be friends. I stated: A fault of mine is that I can easily Love and Forgive others. I just can not forget. Because I can not forget, I can not trust the "others"and thus, no, we can no longer be friends. Do you think this was too harsh?
The gal in my Stepps Group who I have connected with and who seems to be the only other person doing the work, I thought we had developed a bond of sorts.
She took everything that she and I discussed privately and went to the Leaders of Stepps, My T, My Psych... Stating I was encouraging SH and SI.. (Now it makes sense as to my last Stepps Group and Counseling session and things that were said by David and My T)... So once again, I reached out to another who I thought understood me, placed trust in her, and was betrayed by her. She came clean with me but the damage is done. I can not trust her...
So I copied and sent to my T all of my communications with this gal showing that while I was SHing and SI, I was trying to discourage her from the same. I also wanted David, My T and my Psych to see that I know, they betrayed and lied to me, as well in the form of omission.
I'm fed up with everyone and everything. SH and SI is very strong within me today. I'm not certain that I want to fight the urges anymore.
Outside of you all here, there is no one I can trust. Thank you for listening.