May I join you? I love the beach and miss it so much. I brought some extra lounge chairs to share on the deck, and I also brought a supply of coloring books and crayons because that is what has been helping my inner child the most. A nice cozy breeze is here, but I think we can manage okay even if we end up needing to chase a paper or 2 that slips away.
I brought some iced tea, homemade M&M cookies, chips and dip.
Can't think of any humorous stories at the moment, but I'm happy to listen to anyone else's.View Thread
I do parent my inner child. I call it re-parenting myself. I color, read children's books, etc. A friend and I will sometimes get together, and I think it's really our inner children connecting, LOL.View Thread
Thank you. I don't think I explained myself too well, because it wasn't that he was "interpreting" the FB so much as he was explaining how my leap to the conclusion, that it proved I must be nuts and this can't be true, was incorrect. He explained some more about perps and how they operate, and it was such a relief to hear him explain things and re-validate my memories. I really don't want to share the exact FB, but that's the best way I can explain it.
Also, you are right. Children remember things differently (depending on the age, of course), and I've been pretty good about sharing with him just what the memory was - whether a scent or a cold floor or the view from the child's perspective. My artwork only depicts what I saw, heard, felt, etc., in the memory. I don't fill in the gaps to make a whole picture. To me that keeps it true.
One interesting thing was a certain FB in which I described to him the kitchen floor. I didn't have a name for the TYPE of floor, but I could see it and feel it's coldness. I told him that it was speckled and hard like cement. I didn't even KNOW I was describing "terrazzo" flooring! He named it, validated my description, and then I googled more about it. Sure enough, where I grew up and during the time period when the house was built, that was a popular type of flooring used! THAT was an OMG moment to me validating my memories. It's also a little freaky. I ordinarily would never have given the floors a second thought! Then I rummaged around and found a few family photos that showed the flooring and it was what I had remembered. (Goosebumps here!!)
Yes, my T has been teaching me that things may seem overwhelming at times, but my mind won't give me more than I can handle. I 've noticed that to be true. It's just that lately when I recover my equilibrium from a memory and begin to start to relax and focus more on coping with life and health, etc., then BAM, I get hit with another one. Sigh.
And this particular FB is like a part 2 to another one. Funny how we just get blips and pieces, but that protects us, too. I recognize that. I suspect there is even more to this memory, but it's enough for now.
I honestly think God connected me to the therapist I needed because he has been an enormous help to me, and I can even talk to him about embarrassing stuff because of how he handles it all....And as he told me once, "This isn't my first rodeo." I am not the first client he has had that has gone through this.View Thread
Hi, DDT. Just wondering if you still had those thoughts to share or did you change your mind?
Update: Ended up with 4 pieces of "artwork" and shared them with my T today. I was very confused about one of them, but he explained it to me, and now I more willing to keep believing my inner child and the memories.
Still waiting for the antidepressant to kick in...
DDT and Bonnie, thank you for your notes. I'm not upset about waiting for any replies, LOL. I post on these boards with my eyes wide open and no expectations. Many times I just need to purge some thoughts where I know someone will read them, whether acknowledged on the board or not. Obviously it is nice to be acknowledged, but I never "expect" it, especially when we are all on our own and everyone is in a different space and has their own struggles, or is simply on vacation. No worries.View Thread
I could start a new post, but I'm not...just putting it out there that I'm really struggling with the temptation to self-harm lately, partly for release and partly to be "heard," but what more can a therapist do anyway? I'm not going inpatient because that won't be helpful right now as my stack of bills would just be that much higher when I get out and that won't help my stress any. Even my T agreed with me on that one.
Trying to do something healthy and creative from my inner child instead...It can even turn out shocking as long as I stick to acceptable mediums (paint, crayons, etc.). I haven't been able to sit down and do anything all weekend...I'll try to tonight. I wonder what she is trying to tell me...View Thread