THANKS FOR THE INFO BONNIE AND ALL YOU DO HERE! YOU AND KATE TE HAVE BEEN SUCH WELCOME ADDITIONS HERE TO OUR FAMILY! WE ARE SO HAPPY YOU HAVE COME! YOU TWO REALLY ARE LEVEL HEADED OFTEN AND THEN A BUBBLE OFF LIKE ME AND US HERE OFTEN TOO. LOL.
WE ALL BELONG TO THE NUTA HOLIC GROUP! THEY SHOULD HAVE THAT PARTICULAR GROUP MODERATED EH????? NOW I'M A CANUCK.View Thread
DEM AND OTW FIRST FOR DEM ..............I UNDERSTAND YOU FEEL REJECTED AND DISCONNECTED AND HAVE A LOT ON YOUR PLATE. I FEEL THAT REALLY I DO. I FEEL THE SAME WAY AT FIRST WITH CAPRICE NOT BEING HERE. BUT DID YA NOTICE DEM IN THE LAST 6 MOS. SHE WAS HERE LESS AND LESS? I DID. AND THE OTHER MODS WERE TOO. UNLESS ITS MY IMAGINATION??? WHICH IS POSSIBLE. HA! ITS VERY HARD TO HAVE A CONNECTION AND THEN HAVE IT GONE ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU DONT GET TO SAY GOODBYE. I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND THAT! SOMEONE SAID ITS NOT THE WEBSITE ITS US WHO ARE ON THIS WEBSITE AND THAT IS THE TRUTH. ALSO, WHAT KIND OF RELATIONSHIPS IN YOUR CIRCLE ARE YOU TRYING TO CULTIVATE? LIKE YOUR SON IS VERY IMPORTANT TO YOU. WHAT ABOUT FRIENDS?? ACQUAINTANCES WHO COULD BECOME FRIENDS AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST US. CONCENTRATE ON THAT MY FRIEND. OTW.............I'VE BEEN VERY LUCKY TO NOT HAVE SERIOUSLY ILL CHILDREN BUT DO HAVE A SERIOUSLY ILL GRANDBABY WITH AUTOIMMUNE DISEASE. I HAD A HEART MURMUR AS A CHILD AND FOUND OUT LATER IN LIFE THAT I HAVE A MISSING VALVE AND SO SOMEDAY IT MAY HAVE TO BE REPLACED....I'M VERY GLAD MODERN TECHNOLOGY HAS MADE IT POSSIBLE FOR E TO GET THE CARE SHE NEEDS! THAT'S THE POSITIVE SIDE TO ALL THIS RIGHT? I KNOW THAT DOESN'T HELP KEEP YOU FROM WORRY .........I HOPE YOU CAN PUT IT SOME AT LEAST IN GOD'S HANDS WHERE IT WILL BE MOST ASSURED TAKEN CARE OF. HE LOVES YOU AND E AND P AND HUSBAND..... HE ONLY WANTS THE BEST FOR YOU .........THINKS HAPPEN IN MOTHER NATURE WE CANNOT UNDERSTAND. HAPPEN IN GOD'S WORLD THAT WE CANNOT UNDERSTAND. I DO BELIEVE IN WHAT KATE TE SAID THAT GETTING A GOOD PEDS CARDIOLOGIST IS VERY IMPORTANT. AND THE QUESTIONS PART TOO. I THINK WE ALL GO THRU THE UNCERTAINTY AND HYSTERIA OF NEW SCARY NEWS. BUT THEN AS MOMS WE KNOW WE HAVE TO DEAL AND WE ALWAYS DO. THATS JUST WAT YOU DO AS A MOM. I DUNNO HOW ITS JUST INSTINCTUAL. IT REALLY IS. AND WITH OUR MATE WE DO WHAT ALL ANIAMALS DO AND THAT IS WE CARE FOR OUR YOUNG AND WE CARE FOR OURSELVES TOO BELIEVE IT OR NOT. BECAUSE WITHOUT PUTTING THE OXYGEN MASK ON OURSELVES FIRST WE CANNOT HELP ANYONE ELSE. SO PLEASE KEEP THAT IN MIND OKAY??? LOVE TO YOU AN D ALL...........DEFINETELY SAYING PRAYERS AND MY GOOD VIBES COMING YOUR WAY! I'M VERY SORRY THIS IS HAPPENING. ITS SO HARD TO SEE OUR CHILDREN HAVE THIUNGS HAPPEN TO THEM THAT SHOULDN'T HAPPEN BUT IT DOES ANYWAY DAMN IT! I WISH I HAD SOMETHING ELSE I COULD SAY TO TAKE AWAY THE PAIN.........I CARE ABOUT YOU A GREAT DEAL AND I DON'T TAKE THAT LIGHTLY. HUGGERS FView Thread
LAALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALALAL OK IS THAT ENUF REVELING?????
I DON'T WANT TO FEEL BECAUSE I FEEL TO MUCH! IT'S RIDICULOUS HOW I FEEL! I'M SICK O F IT SO I HAVE TO DO THE INEVITABLE BEHAVIOR WE ALL KNOW AS COMFORT. MY MENTAL HEALTH PROVIDORS DON'T CARE IF I SUFFER. THE ONE T SAYS SHE CARES BUT SHE DOESN'T GIVE ME AN APPOINTMENT. SO HOW MUCH COULD SHE POSSIBLY CARE. ALL THE DOORS ARE SHUTTING AND RIGHTLY SO! I'M A BIG GIRL NOW WITH PULL UPS! HAVEN'T I PROVEN OVER AND OVER THAT I'M A SURVIVOR????? THAT I CAN TAKE A LICKIN AND KEEP ON TICKIN! JUST LIKE A DAMN TIMEX WATCH! MY STOMACH IS NAUSEATED THE LAST 3 OR 4 NIGHTS AROUND THIS TIME BEFORE I GO TO BED. I'VE BURNED MY BREASTS BEFORE AND WANT TO DO IT AGAIN. RIGHT NOW I'M DOING MY LEG WITH CANDLE LIGHTER SO 'S I CAN GET RIGHT AGAIN AND END THIS ROTTEN ANXIETY! I GUESS AS LONG AS YOU HAVE ANXITY AN DYOU CAN GO A MILE A MINUTE YOU ARE FINE! I AM FINE! DOES EVERY ONE KNOW WHAT THAT STANDS FOR??? F'D UP IN SECURE NEUROTIC AND EMOTIONAL! OTHER THAN THAT I'M JUST FINE TOO! I HAD THE MOST HORRIBLE NIGHTMARE LAST NIGHT AND I'M AFRAID TO SLEEP TONIGHT. I WAS HAVING HALLUCINATIONS WHEN I AWOKE. IHAVE MY SHOT FRIDAY AND I'M NOT GOING TO TALK TO THE WOMAN. I WAS GOIN GTO HAVE HUSBAND COM EWITH ME BUT FORGET ABOUT IT! HE CAN WORK! THERE IS SLIM PICKENS CUZ THE CALLS GET SLOWPER THIS TIME OF YHEAR. SIGH I KNOW MY FAMILY HERE CARES BUT EVEN AT THAT I DO NOT FEEL LIKE ANYONE CARES AT ALL!!!!!!!! AT AT THAT THEY SHOULDN'T CUZ I HAVE A GRANDBABY THAT HAS AN AUTO IMMUNE DISEASE THAT IS NON SPECIFIED AT THIS TIME. THEY ARE GIVING HER SHOTS AND THAT IS ALL I KNOW. I'M VERY FRUSTRATED AT THAT AND IT MAKES ME WANT TO VOMIT BECAUSE SON TELLS HUSBAND MOM HAS TO UNDERSTAND IF SHE'S SICK SHE CANNOT BE AROUND US. NO KIDDIN! I'M THE ONE WHO KEEPS REMINDING THE DUMN TURD I'M SICK AND CAN'T BE AROUND THEM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GRRRRRRRRR. I'M JUST ONE BIG SORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANKS FOR THE CONFESSIONAL!!!! SHOULD I SAY 10 HAIL MARY'S AND 10 OUR FATHERS???? I'M SLIPPING BACK INTO DEPRESSION WANT TO DRINK AND NOT BE ON THIS PLANET AND THERE'S THE PART THAT DOES WANT TO BE HERE BECAUSE OF WHEN I HAVE TIME WITH HUSBAND THAT IS SO NICE AND GET THE OPPORTUNITY TO HOLD MY GRANDDAUGHTER. SIGH................I MAY NEVER????!!!!!! SEE YAView Thread
DAMN BONNIE.........DAVID APPARENTLY DOESN'T KNOW HOW INT HE HELL TO RUN A GROUP! THESE ARE THE TWO WORDS YOU CAN SAY ON THIS FORUM BTW. I USE THEM FREELY AND EASILY!
I AM LIKE YOU TO SAY WHAT I BELEIVE MEAN WHAT I SAY AND SAY WHAT I MEAN (THE LATTER I AM BEGINNING TO LEARN TO THINK BEFORE I SPEAK SOMETIMES NOT ALWAYS BUT ON A ONCE INA WHILE IT DOES HAPPEN) I DO WHAT I SAY I'M GOING TO DO TOO AND VERY FEW PEOPLE OTHER THAN THE WOMEN HERE AND MY HUSBAND HAVE I FOUND TO BE TRUE! ITS VERY FRUSTATING OF COURSE HOWEVER, IT IS WHAT IT IS! FOR ME ANYWAY.
I WISH I COULD TAKE ALL OF THE ABUSE HOW HAVE HAD AND BOX IT UP AND THROW IT ON A DESERT ISLAND OR IN ANTARTICA WHERE NO ONE HAS EVER BEEN NOT EVEN ANIAMALS! SO THAT YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO EVER BE HURT BY IT AGAIN! BUT SINCE I CANNOT DO THAT I EXTEND MY HAND TO REACH OUT AND GIVE YOU A HUGE HUG!!!!!!!!!!! AGAIN MY INTENT IS ONLY TO HELP NOT TO HARM!
I GET IT WITH THE HEAVEN PLACE. BEEN THINKING THAT TONIGHT A LOT. I'M TORN ONLY BECAUSE I WOULD CAUSE HAVOC FOR MY FAMILY WHICH WOULD NOT BE MY INTENT. SIGH.................WE'VE COME TO SIGH A LOT HERE HAVEN'T WE????
I WISH I HAD SOME GOOD ANSWER FOR YOU. I WISH YOU COULD MOVE SOMEWHERE THAT WOULD BE SAFE. FREE FROM ABUSERS! I HOPE IN THE VERY NEAR FUTURE THIS MAN AND HIS FRIEND LEAVE YOU THE HELL ALONE! WELL THE ONLY THING I CAN SAY ABOUT YOU HURTING YOURSELF VS. EVERYONE AND EVERYTHING ELSE IS THAT EXACTLY THAT "I CAN'T HURT ME? WHY?" B ECAUSE WHE N YOU HURT YOU THE PERPS WIN! DO YOU C THAT? I DUNNO I'M HAVING A HARD TIME SEEING IT MYSELF TONIGHT BUT SOMETIMES I'VE FELT THAT THAT WAS THE REAL WAY IT REALLY IS.
SORRY NOT IN A GOOD SPOT TONIGHT. HUGGERS BONNIEView Thread
totally get what you're sayin! i don't have that disordr but there are many many days i can't get outta my house because of the depression and hell no i won't go! syndrome im glad that you see it the mind reading trick. imagine how awful it would be tho if we could read minds. argh! i don't want to know what they would be thinkinga bout to me!View Thread
all of this is wearing me down badly last night i had a really really horrible nightmare! i was like on some kind of bad drug again. i think its from taking the klonopin 2 days in a row and cold turkeying it i've also misspoke at an office bldg we really want badly to move into ...........i'm really having a hard time with that .......i'm trying not to beat myself up but i'm so worried we won't get the unit because of me tho our credit is excellent! i try to not be stupid and when i get nervous I am very stupid. this mental illness once again is ruining my life! i hate it! i'm so upset............. i'm just rather furious that everything is happening with me. i've tried to have a good attitde but i'm at wits end ladies. that nightmare was so bad! I was so scared someone was in the house i almost woke husband becasue i was trippin...it was like in 3 d. ugh dont want to remember anyh of it. well me and my hurting boobs will go now.................\ sorry to have mispoke once againView Thread
looking for all our sisters here.????? I c two of you. and I saw kate te earlier everyone else seems to be mia? i dunno i just thought i'd put out some feelers and looky here Pand B showed and Kt showed up earlier.....I c Snowy was around earlier in the week which is nice and a few others. I guess i got a wretched case of the loneliesView Thread
guess i'm going to have to make an appt with doc my reg t called tonite and she's going to check with pharm d about my meds. i think its the risperidone thqat i'm getting the rash from cuz rash cleared up on day i din't take itView Thread