Dear Caprice, I have always been in awe of the wonderful giving of yourself and I felt like love toward all of us no matter what! If we were ugly to one another or we were in a spiral turndown.............You helped bring us up. I have some very old messages you wrote to me and I cherish them. Because the board was redone a bit ago they are no longer in the system but I am surely glad I kept them.
Thank you so much for looking out for us when we could not look out for ourselves. Keeping the peace between us when we were at odds! with one another.
I have always thought boy that Caprice is one special lady! You exude such self control and pristine balance. Even when your fibro is knocking you down and other illness comes too you keep on working forward and helping others. Hats off to you Caprice! You are ONE OF A KIND!
First and foremost besides all of the good deeds you do in your everyday life I want to say THANKS FOR THE MEMORIES! Thank you so ever much for saving my life on a few occassions. Back in the day when i was even more severly handicapped you helped shine a lite on me that I could not shine for myself. I will be forever in your grace!
God does for us that no man can do. In hinsight I feel that He spoke thru you to me. Setting me up when I had no balance and sending me on my way. Gathering the board up to rally in your special threads that were action threads. Get our mind off our troubles. I hope we can continue where you left off and poilce ourselves like you did so gallantly!
You will never be forgotten and I am extremely happy that near the end we got to actually see what you looked like. Give my best to Caprice Jr.;s and I hope you have many more grandchildren that you can foster with all the love you have inside you!
I have been touched by an angel and the name she goes by is Caprice. I've teased you in later years and used derivatives of the name caprice such as capricio.......You did not care for that but when you told me to use the name they gave you hear on web md I did. You had a way about you that even with candor it was not a harsh thing and we could handle what you said.
I hope you are behind the scenes watching how we're getting along. I can only hope you're able to seperate and be even of better service even if its not with web md. My hopes for you are that you can live your life with less pain and do more things you enjoy. That you can stop and smell the roses in the every day chore of what you do. However, with that being said I have a feeling that work as you know it was not a chore! I think you really geniunely enjoyed what you did even when you were in distress. You took to this job to this forum and ohters like a duck takes to water! WELL DONE CAPRICE WELL DONE! I HOPE WHEN YOU RETIRE FROM WEB MD IF AND WHEN THAT OCCURS YOU GET MORE THAN A WATCH! I HOPE THEY GIVE YOU A GREAT PLAQUE THAT SAYS YOU ARE THE GREATEST!
I felt you were my friend. You were one of us even tho you rose to the ranks to help us all. Because you once had our habit of sh you were able to really understand what we were goin gthru and help. I only hope we can help one another like you did and I'm praying your spirit remains on the board. What a GIFT YOU GAVE ME AND US!
THANK YOU CAPRICE YOU WILL BE MISSED BUT MY WISH FOR YOU IS TO CARRY ON AND BE HAPPY IN ANYTHING YOU DO AND FULFILLED BECAUSE THEREIN LIES SUCH VALUE TO OUR LIVES.
forever and a day I remain (Fran)cene Jean the dancin machine (made ya laugh didn't i?)
BE WELL MY FRIEND BE WELL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU HAVE REALLY BEEN A CLASS ACT HERE AND I WILL ALWAYS CHERISH THE WRITTING I COPIED FROM THE BOARD TO ME. IN HEART AND SOUL THANK YOU! THANK YOU! THANK YOU! I WON'T WAY GOODBYE I'LL SAY SO LONG! TAKE CARE AND WE'LL TRY OUR BEST TO BE OUR BEST BECAUSE THAT IS WHAT YOU ONLY WANTED FOR US!View Thread
hey Well i think i'm usually ina frown but you're right when people smile don't you really get confused! I always wonder why are people smiling at me and usaully its rare that these days anyone smiles cuz we're all paranoid of whose gonna shoot who ya know! Sometimes (as my mom used to refer to people who didn't get it that they were thick!) i'm thick and don't see the obvious! I want you and everyone here to know ya'll matter! Not only here in our community but to so many that you touch. You, you and You! all of you! We never realise how much we really do affect so many people. Think of the times we all have cried because of something sentimental. for instance i'm so lucky my daugthter wasn't killed as a sophmore in hs in the worst then school massacre on american soil. hmmmmmm so thankful. we've had memebers here in past years who a loved one , friend whomever came on the board and said well so and so took their own life. Its been gut wrenching at times to be attached to someone yopu cannot see and then hear of their untimely death. we're all touched by so many people each and every day. Think of all the people we meet or talk to in the course of certain days! You're right we all do Matter! I still have the rash and not sure what is going on. Tomorrow i'm going to not take the extra risperdal and see if that helps. Its been 4 days at least since i started itching. I dunno this is not acting like an allergy. I had life threatening food allergy for 13 years and almost died 4 x's so i'm very well adept at allergies and throat closing and hives and all the crap that goes with it. But then on the other hand i don't know how it kinda comes and gets worse and gets a little better too. it doesn't make sense and i cna't pinpoint what the heck is happening. its really odd. i did read in my hmo handbook that in adults a rash is not normally anything to worry about so i decided i'd just watch it. i washed just with water and thought i'd see if that had any effect. well i'm going to take nightime meds and take klonopin tonight for sleep because i'm exhausted! so longView Thread
Kate te Thank you so much for saying i'm worht it and that I matter.Its hard for me to realize that! like we all do. I appreciate how you also help when you're not doing so well. It feels better to me to try and help someone. I dunno i guess its the mom in me. I've been like this as far as i remember and i think it really was fostered with my aniamals as a child and my parents didn't do the vet only for dog shots for distemper and rabies. that was it that was all. the dog was only to them for protection which he did very well! Thank you Friend of long ago! he and my cats were my salvation! I really admire you to stick with the dbt skills! faboulous! i really want to write a long tyme but i'm shaking really bad ,... anxiety i guess is what they tell me and to hang in there because there are no more meds i can take which really bites!View Thread
no b onnie you're not slow it is a very hard concept to wrap ones mind around. it came to me last night how to explain in a few words this concept and disassociating.
i guess the thing is that when you disassociate you loose control of being in the present.>>>>Right?!
wen you allow yourself the space and time to actually have the control over your mind instead of your mind controlling you by disassociating........you control your mind to take yourself on a freeing journey into a safe place that you CHOOSE to go to. Not the other way around! does that make any sense??? You have control when you CHOOSE to go to a safe place. Just as in real life people who have panic rooms in thier homes CHOOSE TO GO THERE. THEY DON'T DISASSOCIATE AND END UP THERE BY ACCIDENT. you're not slow at all! It took me years to figure this one out. Keep working on it because believe you me IT IS WORTH EVERY OUNCE OF ENRGY YOU SPEND ON IT!
yes i'm doing nasal rinses several times a day and find sometimes it just doesn't work at all! i'm thouroghly disgusted with myself. how fat i am how i sh'd last night how i feel with shingles still and a rotten cold. now the rash and kinda scared! i have no idea what it c/b from and because i took 3 hydroxyzine, 3 25 mg. benedryl and 2 nightime pm tylenol and still only slept a few hours. i'm deflated i'm dejected and i am not fidning my way. you do matter bonnie! i think the most important thing we can do for ourselves and each other is to say that one another do matter. i think this is a constant source of trouble for women. i think the reason i've been able not to sh for a while 6 weeks? is that i have been turning to God. im worn out im defeated and life is hard and im loosing myself to the deathgrip that comes a knockin. its pretty bad when i can't even pray for my fellow man! sigh as well bonnie! im sorry you're struggling too. i don't know how much more i can dig down an dpull myself up. i think this rash is somehow related to all my illness of late but i do not know???? im not going to do anything about it because frankly i hope it gets me and kills me then i won't have to do a damn thing and it will be an accident!View Thread
K, GLAD YOU HAVE A GOOD DEFINITION OF HP. VERY HEALTHY! HOW ARE THE SUICIDAL IDEATIONS? IM EXHAUSTED BUT CAN'T SLEEP. I DON'T KNOW WHATS WRONG WITH ME! I CAN'T BREATHE TO WELL AND I'VE DONE THE DEED TONIGHT BETTERLY. YA KNOW?/ I'M SO SICK OF ME.I GUESS I WILL HAVE TO TAKE BENEDRYL BESIDES THE HYDROXYZINE! WHATS WRONG WITH ME? I FEEL TOTALLY AND UTTERLY LOST AND SADDENED BY EVERYTHING THAT IS HAPPENING TO ME. I'M GETTING THE SUICIDAL IDEATION TOO K. I JUST WANT TO BE ABLE TO GET RID OF THIS STUPID COLD AND BE ABLE TO SLEEP NOT HAVE HITTERS NERVENOUSNESS AND VIBRATIONS BE RID OF ALL MY ILLNESSES PERIOD IM WONDERING IF ANYTHING WILL EVER BE THE SAME AGAIN ???? I FEEL LOST DOYOU GIRLS?View Thread
kate te glad you're at least really working so hard to let hp in. the thing is that the unity of hp is always there welcome it and embrace it and you will feel a whole lot better. i neve thought i could feel better but hp God has done jsut that for me no kiddin! i'm not a holy roller neither but i do like to share in the joy of whaqt my God brings me and that is peace! as i have delusions and auditory and physical hallucinations and imaginings i can't help but put myself into trying to help my fellow! i'm so clogged right now i can barely breathe sigh... don't know how granddaughter is doing?! no report today. shingles are going away but i have a big ole rash on chest. dont know what its from but its been building for 3 days. sigh i didnt get anymore medicine for my shaking and vibrating. tonight however i'm only shaking and not vibrating just blue.
so ... ? her/him what is your hp? her or him or universe or what is it that you cannot define and maybe that is a problem?? because of roman catholic i had a real hard time deciphering for a long time what my God was. When we rec'd this gift from a client of ours Jesus Calling is the name of the book it all fell into place for me. I know longer have to decide what it is that my hp is do ya know??? do you feel that force inside you that is your hp?? do ya hear it knockin?View Thread
DEM AND OTW I AGREE HOW KINDERLY BONEI WROTE ABOVE ABOUT THE SITUAITON HERE AND WHAT THE MODS SITUATION IS. PLEASE READ AND SEE IF IT MAKES SENSE TO YOU. DEM YOU ARE ONE SWEE T LADY AND YOU NEVER HURT US. THAT'S JUST YOU THINKING YOU HURT SOMEONE BUT IN ACTUATLITY YOU DON'T.
KATE TE I CAN'T TYPE VERY WELL AND TRIED TO RESPOND TO BONNIE BUT WAS NOT SUCCESFUL. I'M A RECOVERING ROMAN CATHOLIC AS WELL HA HA! I'M INTO GOD BUT THAT CAN BE A HIGHER POWER. MY GOD MY HP IS WHAT YOU MAKE OF IT. MAY YOU SEEK THAT NOW AND KNOW WHAT WILL COMFORT YOU IN THE ENSUING DAYS!
I'LL WRITE MORE WHEN AND IF THIS WEBSITE ISN'T GOING DOWN ON ME AND DELETING MY POSTSView Thread