CJ_Smythe

Joined: 10/09/2012
My Story:
I'm a 31 year old woman who started SI when I was 17. I was in and out of in-patient treatment from the time I was 17 until I was 23. I managed to quit SI for about 5 years, and started up again in August. Its gotten very bad. I struggle every minute of every day to not harm myself. Its like trying to keep my head above water with a 1,000 lb weight tied to my ankles.

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Reply: roll call
I, too have noticed that this board is dwindling in number. Its sad, really. I'm not...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: cutting while sleeping wanting advice
Only thing I can think of is to keep your nails short and maybe get some nice cotton...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: so sad. triggery
Hi moreos~ I'm sorry you are feeling triggered. I'm fairly new to this board, only been...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: cj_smythe
Thanks kitty! Thanks LLTree! I had a decent day, not as much fun as I would have hoped,...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
Today is my birthday. And I am still unable to eat very much without becoming nauseated. ...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: having tough time
I have no advice for you, unfortunately. But I wanted to let you know I often feel the...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
I spent eight days in the med hospital last month. Five days in ICU and three on the...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
Still sore to the touch. Bruising has faded though. That's good. Can't seem to get the...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Goodbye
(*(*(*(*(*(*(*(*(*(*( BONNIE )*)*)*)*)*)*)*)*)*)*) You'll be missed. <3 <3 <3...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Savannah's Birthday!!!
I shall bring my Tiger-cat, and some wonderful friends. Let's see there's: Crystal-Kitty...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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