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CJ_Smythe

Joined: 10/09/2012
My Story:
I'm a 31 year old woman who started SI when I was 17. I was in and out of in-patient treatment from the time I was 17 until I was 23. I managed to quit SI for about 5 years, and started up again in August. Its gotten very bad. I struggle every minute of every day to not harm myself. Its like trying to keep my head above water with a 1,000 lb weight tied to my ankles.

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Reply: Today feels impossible to get through
Just a thought ... Does baby sleep in her own crib? Separate bedroom from you? I know its...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
*triggers** * * * * I gave in. I swiped some stuff and ended up using one. I discarded...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Struggling...poss trigger
Hey washedaway~ (*(*(*( HUGS )*)*)*) <~~ if okay. I'm also struggling with cutting...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Have you ever....
I use humor/sarcasm a lot as a defense mechanism. I also use self-deprecating humor a...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
Turns out it wasn't an interview so much as a pre-orientation meeting. There was a total...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Just for me today
Hehehehe ... I like it! Beards and mustaches and hairy body parts for all!!...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: "Friends"
I'm sorry that they treat you that way. I have a strained relationship with my siblings...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Just for me today
SB ... We can all just claim our French heritage!! LoL
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
Have an interview this afternoon to be a candy striper at a local hospital. I'm hoping to...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Just for me today
Hehehe ... I'm a member of the hairy leg club too!! I look like a yeti!!!
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
Posted by CJ_Smythe