CJ_Smythe

Joined: 10/09/2012
My Story:
I'm a 31 year old woman who started SI when I was 17. I was in and out of in-patient treatment from the time I was 17 until I was 23. I managed to quit SI for about 5 years, and started up again in August. Its gotten very bad. I struggle every minute of every day to not harm myself. Its like trying to keep my head above water with a 1,000 lb weight tied to my ankles.

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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
PHP is ready for me to graduate. **bites nails** They want me to graduate this coming...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
I finally heard from him this afternoon. I was starting to get worried that either A) he...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
Thanks Kate I'm still trying to give him the benefit of the doubt, but not much. I'll...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
Kate~ Yeah, I knew somewhere in my heart he was probably just toying with me. He's on...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
I tried to call. He said he'd call me around 4:30p my time (6:30p his time) and that call...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
His dad worked for an airline, and he says he can get tickets on the cheap. All he'd have...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
Kate~ I dunno why he can't/won't give me a ballpark time. I'm starting to think he's just...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
Hello I'm still trying to find a time R can come in and visit. Its a real juggling act. I...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
I've been in communication with R about coming out to visit. He is about to move into an...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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Reply: Münchausen? **triggers**
I've been arranging with a male friend to come spend a few nights. A lot of people whom...More
A journey of a thousand miles begins with a single step. Of course, so does falling down a flight of stairs.
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