I would like to talk more about it but I can't on this forum. Remember how Hatebreed used to have the I m's to get us all together?? I don't remember you being there tho??
I wouldn't have a clue how to do that. and I don't know if it can be done anymore. sigh.... I called a suicide hotline last night.
I wish i'd just get it done with. and here I go this morning out to breakfast with neighbor and don't feellike eating. just wanna run away.... as i'm sure sometimes you do too and i'm sure everyone here has those feelings.
I ended up listening to my headphones (music the right kind) can soothe instead of alcohol. I woke at 330 and had the earbuds still in my ears and the music had been turned up relatively loud. hmmm.... I guess the meditation was good afterall that was the anzan music I listen too. no words.
I don't know how long i'll last with all these icky horrible sad feelings I have and guilt that surrounds me! o well....i'll shut up nowView Thread
O boy a beach house! I've never been to a beach house before!! and all the wonderful things we're bringing o MY! I'm already there.
Well.... I'm going to bring my homemade guac and also Tostito bites to dip with as well as doritos. I'll make my famous bean dip....o lala its more than a bean dip ladies. I thought we'd need some protein throughout the night! and snack for all you who are already there. Hope you're invisioning this.
Lets see how bout some mocktails with those purty little decorations in them! Hurricanes and mudslides to go with bonnies chocolate.... belly on up to the bar and we'll have a few mock tails....
I will wear a housedress/pj.... multi purpose. gotta stay cool for me!
Lets see a funny story... hmmm. .....I went skiing when I was 12 with a friend up to winter park, in Colorado. We both had rented ski's and they were a like in color. I had never been skiing before however, I had read how to do all of the manuers.
I got off the lift and managed to keep standing up. I sorta bummed along till I came into this group of people purely by accident. THey called me some womans name and said O there you are we were waiting for you. (my gf had went with her ski school for lessons) I thought wat the heck I guess i'm with this group. I was to shy then to say anything back to tell them I wasn't with the group.
Apparently it was an adult ski school. I had reached my full height of 5'10" and because of all the clothing they didn't know anything. Talk about a masquerade!!
I learned how to snowplow, parallel ski a little... STOP, and keep going. It wasn't to long we were given a little slack to go down the mountain and everyone would watch. THe instructor was at the bottom of the mountain.
It was my turn. O boy I thought. I'm so happy I'm gonna do this! I started down the mountain and in my exhuberance did not realize how quickly gravity pulls you down! I was going really really fast. I couldn't turn and I was headed for disaster!
I flew into the huge HUGE pipe that is in the middle of that run up in WP. I was all topsy turvey and full of snow up to my hat. My ski's had popped off and try as I may I couldn't get them on. THe instructor told me you have to scrape the snow off the bottom of the boot. OOOOO!! I kept trying and trying and getting near tears. Soon enough the ski instructor told me to keep trying as he was getting exhasperated with me. He told me if you can't get down the mountain skiing then Just side step down with your skis.
THat's what I ended up doing. He told me of a place to go that could give me instruction on how to put them on ....I went and low and behold there was my gf in the hut.
She couldn't get her skis to stay on. Luckily after much deducing.... the ski guy at the hut figured out that her size 7 boot was what I had somehow managed to get my size 9 book into the ski of hers and she had been popping out of my size 9 ski fitting all day.
O MY!!! lol. We got the bindings fixed and went to eat lunch. As were were going to the bathrooms Face to Face.... Who'd I run into without my ski goggles and hat on?? THE ski instructor I had received a free lesson from.
He was shocked at the looks of me! Cuz I wasn't the woman who was suppose to be in his class! You shoulda seen the look on his face.
Of course this story is much funnier told in person. When I get to the beach house I'll think of another to tell you!View Thread
o yeah I used to bippity boppity boo years ago when I was younger... that's why when I lost my wisdom teeth (damn now I have noooooo!!!! wisdom left) the tooth fairy gave me a magic wand!!
Did ya'll know that when you have a tooth pulled as an adult all you have to do it put it under your pillow and you'll rec'v a magic wand too!!!!!
Well back to OTW topic..... Hon be easy with yourself. That includes everyone here!
Its so hard ya just never know what the kidlets will throw at ya. Are you happy with your pediatrician?? If you keep taking her back and you're not getting results.... (If the same thing keeps on happening then you'll keep getting the same results is what the t's say) so I don't know the answer but i'm very concerned about you and E.
Maybe its time for a second opinion?! That just doesn't seem right to me that she should be like this so much. O man I'm prayin for you otw and I hope good things come from maybe another perspective???View Thread
So many of us are feeling blue and don't know how to play clue.
So lets DOOOOOOOOO!
Lets have a slumber party for everyone new and old.. for anyone who may be lurking and for anyone who is looking in who would like to join us.
RSVP by checking in here with : One soothing item you would like to share with everyone, a place you would like to share that soothing item at, and something either to drink or eat (your fav and non alcoholic) If you have a funny story or a feel good story that is short please tell us that too!View Thread
I know more about your kids then I do my own granddaughter B. Ya know I get ruffled about my traumas too when things get flittered up. I just hate it. Put the blame where it belongs back on those college kids. Its ok to have those kind of emotions b. It really is!! It's just trying not to hold onto them to long so you don't have to suffer more than you should ok?? maybe you can take those emotions and put them in a pretty box and float it out to the ocean for now??
I wish I had an answer for you about E. I know she's been a handful. I feel bad for all of you. I know for me when I wasn't satisfied with an answer from the doc I persisted. The only way it seems because of healthcare to get anywhere is to persist with them. That's all I know. I'm sorry I don't have my magic wand on me DAMN IT! Can you imagine a 5'10" old hag who is 250 lbs. in a tutu and tights with a magic wand?!!! hahahahahahaha made ya laugh!
Remember when we'd all cuddle with our jammies on and blankies and everything. CJ reminded me of that! THanks CJ!
I'm going to start a new thread so join in okView Thread