people lets take our board back. I am seeing post going unanswered. We have never been about that. This board has always been about reaching out to everyone.
I'm Paja, known lunatic. I am here and accounted for. last 4 months have been a medical/psychiatric nightmare. I am still not rowing with both oars but under close medical supervision as I try to regain my footing.
Hmm, what happened to DOGDANCING? Long story but she was offed by an alter over the summer. When Ste is 100% sure I am safe to return to the boards unsupervised I will change my user name to something less repulsive. Until them he chaperons by making me use this wretched one.
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I'm currently healing a nasty 3rd degree burn across the top of my foot. So I am obviously still not well.
I am only 11 days free of SIV.
The good thing that came out off all this is a voice in the dim that said. "I am so tired of getting hurt for the actions of others." It has given me much to chew on.
Ill give you a roll call More Os. YOU are not to be posting you KNOW this.
you are not of sound mind or body.
Everyone do not talk to P or any of Tcos. She is NOT to be posting. We no longer have DD to run interfearance for us.
SK - join the ranks of the many who hate us, it will be easier then to try to understand us. We reached out to you so many times because it gnawed at us that board members seldom did. no one deserves to be ignored.
Dogdancing F U C K E D U P and paid for it. trying to help she hurt.
we are f u c k e d up. no amount of talking will change this no one should ever talk to us. we are chaotic evil and thanks to the abuse our boundaries and sense of right/wrong is all screwed (literally) all to hell.
the truth is I'm a damaged unit. everyone should know that, its no secret. I am a freak, a misfit and I have never belonged here or anywhere on the planet. If you want or need professional help or words from a non-damaged unit, you shouldn't be talking to me.
I have the social skills of a shovel and will probably say or do the wrong thing. The changes of that happening multiply quickly the more you know me.
and that is the truth. I don't deny it. I wish only I could change it. People liked DD but never the rest of us.View Thread
report you for speaking your thoughts? Not likely. DD always reached out to you, she wanted to be a healer. Always wanting to help others, to offer comfort and support.
I am not like her. I do not have her depth of compassion.
None of my system has been well since major medication change in June. That night she reached out to you our bodies sister's grandmother was dying. A friends baby had received a fatal diagnosis. She was drowning in pain.
Helpless to heal or stop and of the pain around her she used our blog to try to channel the feelings, to try again and again to twist the rubic cube in an attempt to find the words that would help, you, our bodies sister, our friend. As Ste told you, he deleted the blog.
DD was like that. She wanted to take the pain and help others.
She never did learn that she can't stop all the pain out there. no matter how much she tried.
Those of us that are left. We know we can't stop all the pain out there. All we can do is sit quietly with people and offer an ear.
She should have taken her own advice...don't try to help drowning victims, if you are drowning along side them.
My system is made up of mostly children. They will not be able to solve this problem rationally or to your satisfaction. They realized we hurt you unintentionally and punished us. There is no grey area on this subject. Monsters get assassinated. She messed up and her words harmed you, isn't that enough to call for her life? There is nothing any of us can do to undo the damage of her words.
Was she wrong to try to help you? Yes. Will she harm anyone else? No. she is gone.
What do you need from us? more blood? that is the only way we know to show you how deeply sorry we are that any of us hurt you/still hurts you.
If you wish to discuss this further, I am no longer feeling psychotic or fractured out. I believe I am safe to talk to. I haven't been hiding. I have been medically and mentally very very unwell.
This has been a extremely rough week & 1/2. I'm struggling on levels that should send me straight to the locked unit at the local hospital.
I don't have my usually support here on the board. This board has been a place to vent and be heard and sometimes that would make the difference between injuring and not. It eased the pressure and helped me feel connected and not so alone. It devastating to have the board no longer be on my support team.
What can we do to undo all the damage that was done here?
There is a need for message boards for self injurers. With out them the behavior slides back into the hidden/silent realm. That is a strep in the wrong direction.View Thread
The public SIers differ from those who use it for themselves and keep it concealed and hidden. Their two different side of the coin.
The men/women who post graffic SI pictures are in a whole new genre of SIers. I find that the over sharers are often the ones that are not ready to quit, not ready to buckle down and work on the under lying issues. And sometimes are ones that just picked it up to be cool and have something to do. IE peer pressure, or because they learned about it via media.
The light has been turned on in the room of SIV, and now the subject has lost a lot of the stigma attached to it. So its getting a lot of air time. So to speak.
The amount of disturbing PRO-SIV sites out there is saddening. They are detrimental for those that are easily triggered and those who are working hard to learn/use healthy coping skills.