(((((((((((((((((((((((Paja and little ones)))))))))))))))))))))))))
Breathe in deeply my friend, fill your lungs with fresh cold crisp air.......breath in positive thoughts,white light,health,calm feelings. Exhale and breathe out the chaos and negative thoughts, do not allow them to stay within you, or they will just grow.... push out the fears, the tidal waves of emotion that are rocking you to the core... Draw in the strength of the Earth beneath your feet, it will help ground you and steady your mind. Reach out to nature and remind yourself of her power, and her ability to heal.
Take yourself out to a place in nature where you can find calm and peace, still your thoughts and hear the gentle sounds around you, surrounding you, holding you...you deserve a break....you cannot be everything for all, now is the time where you need to gather strength from positive sources.
You can do this, and indeed you must because it's time to take care of "you" now. Do not allow the "what if's" to take over your life and drown you, you are here "now", today, in this moment, you must live "now" because that's all any of us get, is just "now".....
Buddha says to be "mindful" , it is a very hard thing to do,( I am only successful occasionally,but it is a powerful feeling when I can) Find a place in nature that you feel safe , take a moment to relax your body, breathing in and out slowly, rein in all the wild out of control thoughts, and bring your mind into focus on the here and now only, this one moment in time, let nothing intrude, feel what is around you, using your senses only....close your eyes and focus on your breathe...... listen to what's around you, let your mind empty of all negative thought, and self talk......you don't have to do, or be anything in this "now" you are just "there".... because in those few special moments, you just "are", nothing more... nothing less... allow peace you enter your thoughts....gather strength from that which is around you......the earth gives freely of herself.... accept her gifts. Do this once everyday, make the time...it is for you.....it helps the chaos, fears and panic from getting to big and thus affecting all of you.
When I read your post, it made me realize how much everything must feel like it's closing in, and from within that place of chaos has come your need to SIV...to try and stop the fear and being overwhelmed and out of control......you are among friends, your concerns are real, but do not allow them to grow so huge that they take over control of your life my friend......
Journal... you are an amazing writer, but it doesn't matter what you write this time, just put pen to paper and let the thoughts flow out.....be gentle with yourself, and continue reaching out.... we are here for you...always.....do what you must do for you...... (((((Paja)))))
Thank you for sharing your thoughts and feeling with us, I have carefully wrapped them in soft velvet to keep them safe....
I am sure that if we give her time, one day she will return however she is able, and touch our lives once again in some way.. Of this I have no doubt at all.
Try not to doubt what she told us long ago, I imagine that seeing as no other moderators have returned to their boards either, that there has either been some sort of restriction placed on them about returning to the boards at this point. It may be beyond her control.
On the other hand, you may catch a fleeing glimpse of her out of the corner of your eye.....life has a way of always working out... stay strong.... big hugs
Welcome to the board. Yes, there have been some recent changes here, and there are some fragile souls being cared for right now, but we still welcome new people to the board and those who are able will gladly toss their two cents worth in.
We look forward to learning more about you and whatever you'd like to share with us.
I am very glad to see you here, this board would just not be the same without you, not at all. We are a family of sorts here, and that's what makes it so difficult when something changes with one of us. The trust you speak of gentle friend,wasn't broken intentionally, not at all,and I think you know that in your heart. But I also know that those words will bring little comfort right now to your hurt.
Please know Dem, that you are cared for and about and not forgotten.... or alone. We are here to support you and walk with you on your journey to re building trust.