[Trigger] thank you for answering me. thank you for caring it means so much to me and i wish i could meet each and everyone of you and had the means to fly us all to a really great resort to just take a load off for a week. doesn't that sound induldging? TRIAGger.............................................. i've been drinking tonight i'm pretty blasted and falling asleep at the keyboard. i don't know what to do with my meds? take or not take!?>????? well anyway i'll write another post so ya'll understandView Thread
[Trigger] IT SEEMS LIKE ALL I EVER POST IS TRIGGERY STUFF. I'M SORRY FOR THAT. I TRI TO DO NICE THINGS HERE ... I JUST DON'T HAVE ANY SUPPORT RIGHT NOW AND I DESPERATELY NEED TO GO TO GROUP. DO YOU THINK I COULD LEAVE MY GAL BY HERSELF FOR A COUPLE HOURS TOMORROW. I'M LEAVING HER FOR ONE IN THE MORNING.
I DON'T KNOW WEATHER TO REACH OUT OR NOT???????? I DO HERE. BUT.........................I KEEP MY SCHEDULED APPTS. BUT.............................
TRIGGER TRIGGER TRIGGER TRIGGER TRIGGER 4444444444444444444444444444444444444444444444444444444444 TEE OFF I'M GOING TO DO SOME MORE SERIOUS SH TONIGHT AS SOON AS I'M DONE WRITING THIS. NONE OF THESE BURNS HURT BECAUSE THEY ARE TO DEEP IT DOESN'T EVEN HURT TO B URN MYSELF ANYMORE I GUESS I'VE GONE NUMB. KINDA LIKE MANDYCAKES DISASSOCIATING. I DUNNO. I FEEL SO HOLLOW INSIDE LIKE IT DOESN'T REALLY MATTER AT ALL . I'LL TRAIN THIS GIRL I'LL DO WHAT I HAVE TO DO AND PRETEND I'M HAPPY SO THAT SHE DOESN'T QUIT ON ME. I ATE THREE BIG PIECESOF PIAAA AND 3 CHICKEN WINGS FOR DINNER SOME DIET. CAN'T DO THAT RIGHT EITHER! WELL SE LA VE WHATEVER WILL BE WILL BE QUE SERA SERA NA BARABARA CAVA E HOODICH EL BOCA ES MUY BUENO QOI QOI I BOOKED I DUNNO 10 SERVICE CALLS TODAY AND THEN 3 CANCELED ALL IN 10 MINS. IT WAS SO WEIRD. IT MADE ME MAD! but this one guys was a real jerk so i'm glad he's not my client he wanted something for nothign hmpf! but then i guess everybody thinks ya should pay nothing for nothing. a car can be haglled down but do yopu really think you got a good deal well no you really didn't! becuase theyu ocover it up in the financing! well off to the show i ghoView Thread
I WOULD BUY EVERYONE HERE BOUQUETS OF LILY OF THE VALLEY AND SPRING CUTTINGS FROM MY GARDEN. I WOULD BUY EVERYONE A SPRING DAFFODIL TO PLANT THIS FALL OR NOW TO FORCE TO OPEN LIKE THEY DO AND I'D GET POTS AT THE DOLLAR STORE TO PLANT IT IN WITH SOME DIRT AND MAIL IT ALL TO YOU. FLOWERS ALWAYS MAKE ME FEEL BETTER AND I THINK THEY'D MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER TOO............................
[Trigger] this never hit this board and i won't be so graffic but i want to get it out. how come some people can be graffic and not get deleted and others get deleted? i never have been able to figure that one out. life is just life! no big woo! i'm not two! i'm a rhymnin to timin.
SO I'M LOOSING MY PDOC AND SHE IS THE KINDEST NICEST PDOC I'VE EVER HAD AND I TRUST HER MORE THAN OTHERS. BUT MY HMO LIED TO HER AND I'M SO MAD AT MY HMO. THEY ARE LIARS ALL THE TIME TO THE DOCS. THAts why so many work only part time because to work their full time takes ungrueling long hours. especially in the specialty field s because they don't want to pay them anything that is the proper pay scale this has been going on for the 33 years i've had them !
Big buisness always wins. I hate them too! i'm going to sh as soon as i finish writing and getting this out. i'm going to do it to the best of my abilities. don't worry i'll still be here tomorrow! sad isn't it! i don't know how ya'll put up with me! why don't ya;ll tell me to quit posting and just leave. i don't really belong here either. my pdoc said today that she must not be doing her job if i'm still shing and i said no thats on me! im so lost and i will be her last appt. before she leaves. i'm so sad. i just can't deal with this. my husband i was so distraught and he asks me why i'm so mad. i'm not mad dear. i did tell him she was quitting and that i wanted to go to her practice. she's going to go work somewhere else and i'm gonna see i have to call her tomorrow at noon to see if she will let me see her where she's going and where she is going she told me but i don't remember the full name. I won't have my hair done anymore. she said she worked for them before. she has a baby girl and she doesn't even get a life with this child. i'm so mad and so hurt. the only thing i know to do is to hurt me! I HATE THIS HMO! THEY HAD PROBLEMS WITH SO MANY DOCS! IN SO MANY SPECIALTIES AND THEY JUST KEEP GROWING AND GROWING AND MAKE THEIR PATIENTS SUFFER BUT THEY SAY THEY ARE SO FREAKIN GRAGTE! LATER GNITEView Thread
ive been wondering where you were. last i heard you were going on vaca. just take one thing at a time so you don't get overwhelmed which will lead to a harder time. do you have any friends you could call over to help you or social worker to find someone to help you?
i'm so sorry. just take it one moment at a time and live that moment for that is all we have. i know i don't take my own advice but i think if we all did we'd do a hellava lot better.
i know skills skills skills. i hate that word too lovely.
take care of you and just call the social worker and tell her you need to take the trazadone like you did in the hospital! and tell her to tell your pdoc this! and tellher you're having a hard time.View Thread