I am finding myself so angry lately. My living situation is not ideal. I live with my mom, brother, my 9 year old niece, my 4 year old special needs nephew, boyfriend and my 10 month old daughter. I do most everything around here. I help my brother raise his kids, I do a lot of the housework and cooking. And I feel taken advantage of.
My mom always notes how I "try" to keep a good house, insinuating that I fail. My brother doesn't help out at all (aside from minimal parenting jobs required of him for his son). There is a lot of yelling around here (not an environment I want my child to grow up in). And it effects my relationship, SO and I are both so stressed being here and it causes us to fight more.
Today I picked my daughter up in the hallway and her sleeve was wet. She reeked of pee, because my brother doesn't know how to flush a toilet or shut a freaking door. So I had to give her a quick bath. Then she was out in the living room again and he brings her into the dark hallway and just sets her down and shuts the door. That's the equivalent of me putting his son in a bathroom with no lightbulbs (since he knows how to turn on a light). NOT OKAY.
So here I am angry beyond measure. I see the measuring tape from my sewing kit. I dug the metal end hard into my leg and gave myself two good scratches that are now deep welts. I haven't done anything like this in at least a year.
I don't know how much more I can take of living here. We have no money SO's last check was $200 for 2 weeks of work, usually its closer to $400-500. Hopefully I start a job Feb 28th so that will help with money. As soon as we get our tax money back we are trying for a new place because I just cannot take living here anymore.View Thread
I would rather stay home and take care of my daughter and the house (especially when we get our own place) but I don't think we can afford it so I am looking for part time work to help take some of the burden off my SO's shoulders.
You didn't sound rude at all and I appreciate everything you said. We all have different ideals and desires when it comes to our families. I think working part time would be good for me and good for my daughter, it will give us a break and hopefully a routine as well.View Thread
Well the first company finally emailed me informed me that the positions are all filled. And I don't think the Ross interview went well because I'm not willing to work Sundays. But I will find something that works for me and my family. I'm hoping my brother gets a job and then I can just watch his kids and stay home with my LO.View Thread
I really love this thank you for sharing with me. We are definitely looking into getting our own place. We looked at an apartment and we really like it, its big inside and close to a lot of things and near where we currently live.
I'm still waiting for an interview with this call center I want to work for. Also have a job interview at a new Ross opening in town, but I wouldn't make enough money for us to live off of. SO has an option to switch departments where he'll be making $3 more an hour, so he is thinking that in March he's going to try to switch departments.View Thread
Thank you ladies. I was going to pick up a full time babysitting job but I'd rather do that call center work, less hours for more money and it gets me out of the house. I am really just hoping that our taxes are enough to get us into our own place, I feel like if that happens everything else will fall into place.View Thread
So those who remember me, might know that I am against medication to battle my depression but I really need to get it under control if I want to get pregnant soon. So I was wondering, what are your favorite stress management techniques..? Do you think Pilates would have a similar effect to Yoga?
Thanks OTW!! When I start feeling down I remind myself that it will happen someday and just because it didn't happen this month doesn't next month we won't get lucky. I'm late right now but I've gotten two negatives so far this week, I'm going to wait a week or two and if AF doesn't show up then I'll test again, in the meantime I'm taking prenatals, trying to eat healtheir and trying to exercise.View Thread
Thanks Ladies!! I really appreciate your responses. Ive been trying to be more active lately and was picking up a routine (SparkPeople 28 Day bootcamp, a series of once a day videos and mt choice 30 min cardio 5/wk) but once I hit day 4 or 5 I forget or i have something to do. The other day I was really triggered so I took off out my door on a run but that only lasted two blocks then I had to walk.
I'm stressed cause of what happened in January and now my friend Joey is pregnant with her second child (her son is 9 months or so) and K's bro is on his third baby. K's family wasn't accepting of us having a baby so I'll be really upset if they accept his brother's (especially since his brother just got out of jail and his brother's gf just got out of rehab).
I'm just really depressed and stressed right now. The other thing I've been doing is listening to music, I have my "angry" song and then I have just my usual playlists to distract me.View Thread
I always want what I can't have lol! Now that I have appetite back, I want tons of delicious foods.
That's interesting that you get your foodstamps on the 21st, we get ours in the beginning of the month in correlation of the last number of our SSN (I get mine on the 2nd, so does bf and brother gets his on the 5th).
I think Tuesday (my night to cook) I might make chicken tacos with spinach and tomatoes, low fat cheese and sour cream.View Thread