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It's been a long time since we've had a distraction action or anything like that so I thought I'd try...

Where there is shadow, there is light.

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I'm so glad that you're feeling better now! Changing meds can really throw your system off. Insurance is...

Where there is shadow, there is light.

Posted by BlueRose90

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Tcos, Thanks for the welcome.

Crying Is Like Taking Your Soul To The Laundry Mat!!!!!!!

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Reply: Unknown

(((hugs if okay))) I'm glad that you're feeling better. I'll get out a banana for Foxy. He loves...

Where there is shadow, there is light.

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(((Hugs if okay))) I know how frustrating it is when the board gremlin eats posts but don't give up. If you...

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Appreciate your reply, Rose....I'm calling it a day. Going to bed. Can't deal with anything else. -Misty the...

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Reply: sudden attack of emotion

Oh, I see...It's okay to be angry about all that, too. It's justifiable anyway. (((gentle hugs))) Sigh. -Misty

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Hey Mary, I'm so sorry for everything that you've been going through. When someone has dementia like that...

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I'm unfamiliar with what "IOP" is, but I hope it is helping. Something outpatient? I'm glad you have Savannah. I...

Posted by TNmist

I'm unfamiliar with what "IOP" is, but I hope it is helping. Something outpatient? I'm glad you have Savannah. I saw a picture of her in another community, and she is a beauty!!

I know what you mean about being tired of the whole people scene! I can only take so much of people in general, and then I just have to have my alone time. I was with people all morning, in a good way, but still with people, so now I'm ready to relax alone for a bit. My dog is busy chomping on some ice cubes. It's too funny. He used to never touch the things, but then I froze some flavored with bullion cubes, and now he will eat plain ones. Cheap treats, and I have a friend who swore they helped her dogs teeth/gums.

I just have to say a little something about Delta, not to say people can have bad experiences, but let me share this. I have some very good friends who are about my age, just a couple years older, and the husband worked for Delta. They took a family vacation a couple of years ago out west. Tragedy struck, and in the process of saving their 10-year-old son who was swept down a river, the husband disappeared. It was about a week before they recovered the body. The boy was saved, but my good friend didn't make it, and he used to be a lifeguard "back in the day."

Well, the whole time there were search parties and all, Delta paid for food and accommodations and treated the family like royalty. Of course, the body was flown back to GA, and there was a good representation from Delta at the memorial. He worked for Delta for many years in an office position, but he wasn't an executive or anything like that. I could never remember exactly what, but I was very touched by that. The memorial service for my friend, who was in his upper 40s, was held in a gymnasium and it was PACKED. He was just a very good guy, and obviously well liked.

I guess there is good and bad in most companies. My mom was in the hospital recently, and my sister was reluctant to take her back to that one because of the way she was treated before, but THIS time, in a different wing, she was treated much, much better, and my sister was very relieved to say the least.

It is overcast here today, and there has been a little bit of rain so far. I think more is coming. I love days like this because they generally match my mood.

I hope you get some rest this weekend. Good to hear from you!

-MistyView Thread

Posted by TNmist

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Reply: 3 years and 6 months...possible trigger

Hi Megan, I'm so sorry for what you've been through and what you're still going through. I am glad that you...

Where there is shadow, there is light.

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Reply: Distraction Action

I only have 4-legged kids, too...So, to answer #1, one of my favorite "mom" moments was the first time I met my...

Posted by TNmist

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Reply: Times Up

UGH. Family! I've been learning, this past year especially, how important it is to create safe "family" around...

Posted by TNmist

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Reply: Meltdowns

Interesting idea. I've never heard of them. Right now I have more out-go than in-come, so I have to figure...

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Reply: Bucket list

LLT, I'm exhausted from reading your list so you must be spent from all of that.I'm going through have of...

Crying Is Like Taking Your Soul To The Laundry Mat!!!!!!!

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3 Replies | Reply | Watch This Discussion Report This | Share this:Bucket list LLT, I'm exhausted from reading your list so you must be spent from all of that.I'm going through have of...

Reply: Quiet out there.

Ya, I didn't worry about having a distraction action this week, either. We will do one next week. I was going...

Posted by TNmist

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Reply: Not Enough.............Be Careful

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I'm not really a psychopath, I just play one on the internet.

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Reply: frustrated

Hi Rose. I think you said it all when you said "The more help they get as soon as possible the better." Like...

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Reply: No idea what to call this... possible trigger

I thought I had grieved a long time ago and that I was moving on. I guess I do need some more time to come...

Where there is shadow, there is light.

Posted by BlueRose90

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Reply: Maladaptive Daydreaming or Catfishing coping mecha...

Hi Rhonzy, I'm glad you found us here and I'm very sorry for what happened to you... DDT had some great...

Where there is shadow, there is light.

Posted by BlueRose90

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Reply: Distraction Action

Wish there was more I could do for you. Is there anything you can do to distract yourself? Or, maybe face...

Posted by TNmist

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Reply: Why is the journey towards healing worht it?

Thank you, Slik. I needed those words of encouragement. It's one thing to be encouraged by my T, but words of...

Posted by TNmist

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Reply: TRIGGERS

Please don't give up and keep yourself safe LLT. (((gentle hugs if okay))) Rose

Where there is shadow, there is light.

Posted by BlueRose90

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Reply: no title

Ditto what Rose said....I've been wondering, too. Kind of assumed she may have emailed you, Rose. That's what I...

Posted by TNmist

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Reply: I'm just sayin'

Right there with you, Mary... I second what you say. It stinks! It's horrible! What's going on to...

We must be the change we wish to see in the world. -- Mahatma Ghandi

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Reply: Too much/not enough

I'm glad you got started on some medicine. Sometimes you just have to have it to knock out the stubborn...

Where there is shadow, there is light.

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Reply: A healing journey part 4 - trigger SA/SI

***************************** ************************* ************...

I'm not really a psychopath, I just play one on the internet.

Posted by DOGDANCING_TCOS

***************************** ************************* ************ ********************************************** ************************

Sept 28, 1989

to hush the never ending question of why
she gave her life to the sky
and now I lay me down to sleep
no more shall I weep
to give
to live
not possible in this brain
full of the stench of being insane
I seek the lulling hush of eden's arm
to shelter me from harm
the smell of century's of damp decay
I seek to leave the world to its self imposed disarray
I put on my blinders and look away
I don't want to live is all I'll say
so now I lay me down to sleep
in this fern heap
I'll put out my pilot light
and say goodnight.

October 2, 1989

***************
strong triggering subject regarding sexual abuse to be posted below.
I am including it here because you need to see how I healed, and one of the ways I did that was by looking hard at what made me injure when I did. Then learning to see triggering events and avoiding them or reaching for help rather then the matches.
****************

[DELETED!!> well I made it 5 months without harming my self. I called
Richard no answer, called answering service and left message. He called back 1/2 later. I couldn't tell him I was going to injure. Ste was mute, his throat clamped shut. We tried, and failed to communicate. Burned my arm a good one, nice big 3rd degree burn. I feel funny like I'm not ashamed, I'm not crazy, I'm not sorry. I just don't care anymore.

Perhaps I realized that my B-day is looming up fast and I got scared. Tired of fighting, who knows. I'm canceling my appt tomorrow. i don't want Richard to know about it. I need time to think.

Actually I bet it had to do with:
1. Touching/trust exercise Saturday at the "special friends" seminar (of shoot of the big sister/brother program - you are paired with a at risk kid in a school setting)

2. Doctor show Sunday about diagnosing sexual abuse - they showed the vagina as a clock. They said with sexual abuse most trauma/scarring would be seen from 3 o'clock to 9 o'clock going clockwise. (the bottom of the vagina)

Most of the scarring/damage I have is from 9 to 3 o'clock on the top.
Which supports the memories of being held down face first. (that would turn the clock over) thus showing all the trauma where it shows up on sexual abuse victims. Conformation that the story Ste tells me happened is true.

I still feel empty. So i hurt my self?! I'm not excited about it. I'm numb
and slightly confused.

October 4, 1989

I tried to call and cancel my appt. As soon as he got the message he called me back. He told me that it didn't matter no matter what happened he still cares and wanted to see me. I told him I couldn't deal with it this week, I needed time to think about what happened. He said he respected my need for space. He was going to leave my hour open so I could come in if I wanted to.

I hollered at him and I feel bad about that. He wanted to know if I was
testing him. I told him the truth, no.

(to be cont in part 5)View Thread

I'm not really a psychopath, I just play one on the internet.

Posted by DOGDANCING_TCOS

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Reply: Checking in

Hey LLT, I was wondering how you were doing. I'm glad to hear that you're still hanging in there. Thank you...

Where there is shadow, there is light.

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Hi, Toni. This group has helped me a lot this past year, and I hope you find comfort and encouragement here as...

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LLT, hope you are doing better. Depression has me in it's grip, too, and I'm caving in and calling my doctor to...

Posted by TNmist

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Reply: Distraction action anyone?

Thanks for your response, LLT. I surely hope you are doing better today and are safe. I like Moose, too, but...

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