WolfFaerie

Joined: 03/22/2011
My Story:
I'm 38 years old mother with three kids who are basicily teens 11 and 15 years of age. I grew up knowing that I was not the right sex i.e. dad wanted a boy but got a girl instead. Living with my dad who was and is an alcoholic that would beat the sh** out of my mom as well as physically, mentally, verbally, and emotionally abusive to me. It's enough to say that my mom left my dad when I was 5 years old without ever looking back. Our rescuer was my Uncle David and my great hero at the time. He became father, uncle, hero, playmate, and all round buddy to me. It wasn't until the summer before my 7th birthday that I learne of a very different side of my Uncle David.
One summer day in which I spent the entire day with him without my Aunt Susie being home, things changed dramaticly between my Uncle David and me. We played hide/seek, feed the dogs Princess and Daisy, and ate lunch.
TRIGGER TRIGGER!!!!!
Having gone to the bathroom came out to find a red book that was folded open to very specific pages: A naked man standing up with a naked woman on her knees in front of his penis on one page. The next page showing the woman taking the man's penis into her mouth. I looked up at my Uncle David to find him on the couch in his white t-shirt and blue jean cut offs with a smile on his face. I brought the red book over to him not having noticed that his fly was undone until I was at the couch. He continued smiling at me and patted the seat next to him on the couch, which I did sit down with all my childlike curiosity. Sitting next to my uncle I noticed that his fly was open and his penis hanging out for me to see. At his encouragement I touched one little finger to his penis all the while my uncle smiling at me. Then he asked me if I wanted to kiss it: at first I kept shaking my head no over and over again and that didn't seem to bother him at all. He asked again then I shook my head yes this time as I leaned over to kiss it he put his hand on the back of my head pushing ever so slightly on it . And just like magic it was over he got up and left the room a few minutes later my Aunt Susie showed up. We then went to Dairy Queen for ice cream thus my Uncle David bribed me with a baby vanilla ice cream cone. To this day I hate vanilla ice cream. Not long after this happened my Uncle David was killed in a truck driving accident three days before my 7th birthday. I was left to keep his secret 'cuz he cheated with his death.
I've had other incidents of sexual abuse that happened later like being touched on school bus on the way to school in the sixth grade a couple of times and my boyfriend nearly forcing me to have sex with him. These are just as important as the day with my Uncle David leaving their own scars.
I'm coping with all of this to the best of my abilities. I suffer from Bipolar 1 with psychotic feaures that include voices and hallucinations for which I finally got help with last year after 31 years of living with it. I'm now on my healing journey and it's a long winding road. Peace~ Wolf and Little Wolf

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